Not really sure what to call how I feel.
I want to drink booze - a lot of booze - but I'm still not quite accepting of the smell. I've made progress, three beers and a couple of shots of tequila this month, but I'm still not ready to just chug it and answer this calling.
Last weekend I made hallucinogenic tea - not sure what that was about, either.
It's like what I posted on Dunc's site about a twinge of hunger in a person's spirit. Most things this troubling WANT to go away, though. This crazy train has not even completely arrived, yet. I can feel it coming.