the really fucked up thing is im still in love with her more than two years after we broke up. id marry her if i were in a position to do such a thing. im mad cause i think she is just using me to try and get prego. i want to be with her and all she seems to care about is my sperm. im tempted to get fixxed, so i can get even. lol. whatever, why do i punish myself like this?
I don't really see that as fucked up, EXCEPT that you'd be willing
to marry her. Hell, I still love my PE (psycho ex), even after she's been
dead for 15 years. And yeah, I miss her, at times. Doesn't mean that I
could put up with the reality ever.