they want healthy employees. but i don't see them telling fat people to stop eating. how the hell are we allowing them to dictate out lives, i mean where is the world going? people have to stand up and refuse to take that shit.
You need to fuck off, unless you really know what it's like to try to get a fucking job. You have the attitude of an unemployed idiot.
yeah and if you had read my next posts you would know i know it's hard. right back at you angel fluffy bunnah!
yeah i'm unemployed for good fucking reason.
i know how hard it is to find a fucking job you angel fluffy bunnah. i could never find one. cuz of how i am. so don't tell me i don't know. i was just saying what i think people should do, as a collective. i didn't mean any one person should do it alone. but maybe you'd know that if you'd asked me before you fucking gheyed me you hothead.
edit: can't type when mad gerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Nothing to be mad about, anyway. You posted from what I believe promotes a fools mentality. I merely called it such.
I chose to make personal sacrifices to try and find a lifestyle that makes some sense in my situation. You don't have to like it. Hell, I don't have to like it - I just have to do it. You don't, so fuck off with your perfect world bullshit.
Ah, shit!
I just noticed I'm dealing with someone who has the color of power in their stars. I know your not Callaway. I'll be damned if I can figure out who I'm talking to half the time, here.
Doesn't really change anything. Prank me if you need to.
i NEVER said i wouldn't make the same sacrifices. FUCK OFF yourself. what pisses me off is you assume what i think. you don't know what i think from what i said i hope could be done in a perfect world.
i said should, i never said it could. fuck off assumer.
Just responding to your post as posted. I was not aware there should be several more posts to try to get your meaning straight. I'll remember that.
this is an aspie board, there are miscommunications. what are you, NT?
Miscommunication, sure. Perfect world if everyone would just, whatever. I don't think so.
I guess that ends the conversation, eh, Nazi.
Hi, Milla,
I'm dusting off this thread, because I feel that I treated you unfairly, a few nights ago, and I owe you an explanantion out of respect for you. It seems obvious that we were not communicating at all, that night, nor did I care who I was talking to, partly because I was overstimmed the point of seeking personal defenses. Some personal defenses, as you know, take on the form of offense. I also used your provocative comments, which I normally bask within, as a direction to vent some of my spleen's foulness.
BUT ... You are right!! Our world is in need of some changes. I just have no idea how to implement them. If I am the person I want to be, then I get stepped on. If I assert myself, I feel like a user.
These companies expect a lot out of their employees for little monetary return. Not only do they test us for drugs, make us pass personality profiles, and expect us to memorize buzz-phrases, they tell us how to dress! That's right, we have a dress code we must follow if we are to remain employed. I must wear khakis pants with a black belt, black shoes, but not trainers, a blue shirt which they supply and we cannot have more than one piercing visible or more than one tattoo visible. I actually make fifty percent more than other comparable companies from dealing with their rules and I also have a chance to advance within the company, put in writing, but the "DOING" causes me some of the same stresses it would cause to you. I am only judging from what you have posted about yourself not pretending to know much about you.
When I came home that night, I was extremely overstimmed from too much personal contact and trying to deal with it as best as I could, still searching for some justification for my existence, while knowing that if I am to continue in my present place as a father and tutor of small children, acceptable husband to a cherished wife and homemaker in general, I MUST find that justification and find it fucking fast! I saw your comment and obviously had no idea what you were saying. I interpreted your statement as a personal attack, making it out that I was giving up my truesoul to be a tool for a big companyl ...or something. like that.
There may be a bit of truth to my misinterpretation, in fact.
If you have ever seen the Hitchcock movie, "The Birds," remember one of the final scenes, when the stars were leaving the island in a car and all the birds were somewhat calm, but still present and gathering, every where you looked, still watching their every move, still a danger to them, still could be agitated by the slightest wrong movement.. These people have been pecked half to death, but they will survive, if they can only get away. This is how I feel sometimes when I leave work. It's like that fucking movie! I WILL make it, but I need to get out, right now and go somewhere to heal!
I often come to Intensity to heal, because, as I have said mroe than once, there is power in fraternity and I feel AT ONE with many people here, you included! You, especially, more than some others.
The reason that I am putting this in public view, rather than in a cowardly PM, is that I want everyone to know that I am not some sage father figure or big brother to look up to. I am a fifty two year old, bratty child, sometimes, still feeling his way blindly around a world that baffles him and makes him want to die or kill at times, but also gives him
(this child, ME) the only pleasures he can conceive.
The way I want to look at what we exchanged the other night is that, we are both passionate people and have much love/hate for each other. I want the balance to weigh down the love side, though. I don't mind a spirited argument, but I feel that neither of us were prepared to defend ourselves in an intelligent way and both resorted to mindless defenses. I remain humble enough to accept more than fifty percent foul. Your call. I could apologize, but you probably have enough stuff to wipe your arse on, already, so let's just agree to tolerate the other's differences and go on to the next day.
If this whole fucking thing sounds like a big whine, so be it. It is merely meant to point out that we are not that different in many ways and that the sacrifices one must make to deal with the ""real world"" (employment search or what ever!) can be extraordinarily damaging to, what I consider to be, good psychological health.
I am hoping that you can accept my arrogance and agree that most of what we had harsh words over was a fluke.
Still love ya,
Dawg