when me thinks about Carla is is reminded of his mom.. scary!
Both of you are out of controll at times, but its ok, I understand, we all have our issues. The generalized disregard for my feelings is what gets me. The stigmatizing, its so annoying. Your both overweight, no offense to either of you. I want everything to be equal, that way I have decent challenge in life. Its like the sensory isolation chambers they used to use for autistic patients, they soon grew less able to adapt to life. The thought of that is scary enough. I am just like my mom, I have to have fuckn noise. Music helps, but its not someone nice to talk to. Its not someone I can share my happiness with. Jessica is going through a tough time, but I forgive her. She ignores me months on end, and now I see why. I told her in these tough times, its not always you. I don't really get offended though because I am self actualizing. There are other times when she begs for my attention, and its kind of cute. Its on surprise to me, I mean I have been hurt by others so many times, times when people where immature. They still try, but they learn after I am not neive. Depends what kind of mood I am in if I let them go easy or not. I always forgive, eventually,
because that is what is best for me. Its that begging for my attention and what my mom does to me that makes me fell loved. Its disfunctional, but it was all I had, adapt or die. Things are different these days, when
I straighten myself out those bad moods are seen as sadness and less as love. I associate bad things with love because that is all I was given. Me as my younger self didn't know what to make of it. This comes out into the kinky sexual ideas like handcuffs. I am not sure I like being spanked, as I bruise easily, even though its firm from exercise. I don't like welts and bruises on my hard work. I don't like the shaving injuries on my belly, I need to go easier. I cut down there to from shaving. Jessica didn't like the hair, and I didn't either to a degree.
* AllDayGlowRandy will buy chamomile tea this month, as it stimulates a harmone that rejuvinates hair and skin. It creates a mild euphoria to that makes me want to have sex. Chamomile tea makes me sweat alot. Fat souble toxins such as food pesticides come out that way. I can't wait to have money. Ocean potion has extract of chamomile in it, but I want more. I will buy some astragulus extract to, so I can filter my lymphyoctes out. I don't like my body responding to alllergens or food proteins. Something tells me the immune system needs up regulating. You bastards let a cold sore out, and you are did not kill the virus. Get your ass in gear before I smack it
* AllDayGlowRandy imagines himself full of energy that makes him stronger. Get to work, you fuckas! Kill the fuckn virus.
To perfect from exercise, don't touch my ass. I don't have bowel problems no more, I took a probiotic for 3 months, 15 billon cfu's.
