Look on to yourself, I am not sure what your problem is, but please try.
Did you get counseling?
Is have a disability so much that you have trouble introspecting, like a perceptual defense or something?
At any rate, I want things to be equal.
Mom is going to have a heart attack. My sister was the one I was talking about, that shockes me you could not get it.
I don't like that, that is why I am trying to be a doc of some kind, I mean the confusion.