That I have so much to say, but am too afraid to say it. That I am over analyzing things and not just allowing myself to feel. I know I am not dead inside and still have a great capacity to care for and give to another. Maybe there is happiness out there for me. That my mind is racing beyond the speed of light. That I cannot get the song "Confusion" by New Order out of my head!
"Confusion" by New Order
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you mean to me
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you cannot see
You're hiding from feelings, searching for more
Sharing and hoping, untouched for so long
Our lives still change from the way that we were
And now I'll tell you something I think you should know
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you mean to me
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you cannot see
You cause me confusion, you told me you cared
He's calling these changes that last to the end
Ask me no questions, I'll tell you no lies
The past is your present, the future is mine
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you mean to me
You just can't believe me
When I show you what you cannot see
You tell me you need me, I'll make it this time
The thread won't divide us, the sensation survives
I was sure that I told you it was good from the face
You've caused me some problems, you've taken my place
Why can't you see what you mean to me?