Enigma?
Is it this:
Um. Not exactly. Well, except for the bit about impulse control. I don't mind contradictions. What I haven't found yet is a key to predicting them. Multiplicity is actually fairly easy once you learn the structure. Purer ADHD, not so much. At least it goes against the order that I understand.
I don't know what you mean by purer ADHD.
Our psyche originally said I have many qualifiers for an ADHD DX, but my experience at compensating would make it impossible to confirm. My instant thought (I wanted to voice, but didn't) is BULLSHIT, she has no idea how much energy and focus it actually takes to "compensate." She remained in the "safe zone" with PDD-NOS for me. Later, after two more visits, I saw that she had also added ADHD to mine and to my son's lists of shit.
As far as identifying a structure ... you may be dreaming.
For myself, I wake up in a different world almost every day. What ever teetering balance of compensations or corrections I used "yesterday" often does not apply to "today." Some days I have really bad crossovers and other days it is only a general cross between sight and sound. Some days I have no co-ordination and other days I'm graceful and dexterous. Some days I can't taste anything at all and other days, the slightest taste makes my ears ring and my sight blur. Some days I have no feeling at all. Other days I have massive pins-and-needles everywhere. (... and I fucking HATE change!)
I can't really describe it any better. Good days and bad days! I know that is not unique, either, judging by many of the people here, my kids and the one other (confirmed ADHD) guy I know from work.
I doubt that any arrangement of "If A or X, not B nor C, then not D nor E, but F or G and Y, but not Z nor W" or some such shit will ever be found.
Like how you (or others; ADD/ADHD, along with schizophrenia, is something I've been watching and trying to figure out for a while) can want something, and care about it, and still get diverted and forget it - without it being related to trauma or "issues" of some kind.
Can't really offer anything to address that. It's just how it is.
I "compensate" by leaving myself notes here and there or "things out of place" reminders to help me stay on track. I always have. It sounds ridiculous, but it does help a little to come back to something, but not for decreasing the tendency to "drift" or to become totally consumed by some other task or fun thing.
Or really, how to get genuine interaction that lasts more than a couple exchanges before spiraling into one infinity or another and seg-faulting. Which extremes are to be met with the opposite extreme, which are to be met with an anchored center, and which are to be mirrored alongside.
Again, you're dreaming, I think, especially about a continued interaction. (I'm trying)
Using myself as an additional example, only certain simple things will ever be predictable, such as, a knock at the door will always make me jump out of my skin and my ears will always instantly roar like a jet taking off inside my head, unless I sense the approach.
Extremes like Trig having a sensitivity to light and having to wear dark glasses to be comfortable and myself being sensitive to light in a different way in that I am able to look directly at a photographic subject during a studio strobe exposure and adjust my strobes for angle and intensity to within about two tenths of a stop or less error, with my naked eyes, will never be predictable. Nor will odd things like my extreme dawg nose sensitivity to smells, while at the same time, I am able to tolerate very powerful, horrid odors that would make everyone else puke, almost instantly. Maybe that one is an example of an "anchored center."
What does any of that have to do with your claim that I have a talent for obfuscation?
