Post what you're thinking right now.

[Lucifer]

responsibility, pah.  whatever.  stop trying tio be a bloody hero.  u r not going to make me stop feeling suicidal even if u DO send the police rounf my house.  my problems are NOTHING to do with u.  i have been fucked upo ever sice i was 9.  uthink soem words from u re going to change that?

sweetheart, no-one can change that except you, with loads of support from people who know what they're doing.  no-one who knows anything about it would expect you to.  and you know there are people who can give you that support, you need to reach out to those people. 

just start with the willingness to do so, because when you feel as bad as you do right now, i doubt you've even got that.

[Sophgay]

Which is why you post about being publicly rejected by me when telling people you're going to kill yourse;f?

[Alex179]

who cares if ouyr an admin?!

if u werent one would u give a fuck?

no.

exactluy.

therefore i thinkits pointless to hide behind the admin excuse.  its not like this site will usffer much when im gone.

Obviously you didn't understand what I was saying
I'm not using the admin thing as an excuse to pretend I care
I'm saying, regardless of whether I care or not, I believe I have some kind of responsibility BECAUSE I am an admin. It doesn't matter if the site will suffer or not, I don't give a fuck who you are - if you post that you're going to kill yourself, and I have contributed to that in some way, wtf do you expect me to do - nothing? Or is that what you want? You can threaten to kill yourself and I can sit ehre and feel bad and blame myself? I'm getting sick of this tbh. I have lost people to suicide before, if you think I'm just going to sit here and do nothing then you've got another thing coming

oh yeah poor u.

starbuline killed herself so ppl are meant to feel sorry for u when ill do the same

please!

u dont give a fuckj either way.  i dont CARE if ur an admin really.  tjat doesnt mean anything

You better not kill yourself.    Look at how young you are and how much time you have for things to change.   You never know what positive changes might occur in your life if you just stick with it.     The unrequited love of one forum member should not mean that much to you.   Killing yourself will not fix anything.   There are plenty of other hot lesbian girls out there for you, move on.

I don't want to see you go.   You are pretty damn funny at times.   I don't talk to you just because I find you attractive.   

[Lucifer]

i am teh mastah at bein rejected!


lucifer i luv u, u know i do.

yet the stuff in m head is getting too overwhelming

then let some of it out - it ain't all yours to carry, sweetle.  give it back to the bastards who dumped it there.

wuld do if here werent any danger of me going to prison

there are other ways, gus, and i've seen it done.  i've even helped people do it, and it's not as hard as everyone fears.  it ain't easy, but it's worth it, to get rid of all that fucked-upness roiling round in your head.

[Persona]

Which is why you post about being publicly rejected by me when telling people you're going to kill yourse;f?

It id snothing to do with u.

U r just teh cherry on top of all my prolrms really.

responsibility, pah.  whatever.  stop trying tio be a bloody hero.  u r not going to make me stop feeling suicidal even if u DO send the police rounf my house.  my problems are NOTHING to do with u.  i have been fucked upo ever sice i was 9.  uthink soem words from u re going to change that?

sweetheart, no-one can change that except you, with loads of support from people who know what they're doing.  no-one who knows anything about it would expect you to.  and you know there are people who can give you that support, you need to reach out to those people. 

just start with the willingness to do so, because when you feel as bad as you do right now, i doubt you've even got that.

I have no support though, my psychiatrists have been fucked up

[Persona]

who cares if ouyr an admin?!

if u werent one would u give a fuck?

no.

exactluy.

therefore i thinkits pointless to hide behind the admin excuse.  its not like this site will usffer much when im gone.

Obviously you didn't understand what I was saying
I'm not using the admin thing as an excuse to pretend I care
I'm saying, regardless of whether I care or not, I believe I have some kind of responsibility BECAUSE I am an admin. It doesn't matter if the site will suffer or not, I don't give a fuck who you are - if you post that you're going to kill yourself, and I have contributed to that in some way, wtf do you expect me to do - nothing? Or is that what you want? You can threaten to kill yourself and I can sit ehre and feel bad and blame myself? I'm getting sick of this tbh. I have lost people to suicide before, if you think I'm just going to sit here and do nothing then you've got another thing coming

oh yeah poor u.

starbuline killed herself so ppl are meant to feel sorry for u when ill do the same

please!

u dont give a fuckj either way.  i dont CARE if ur an admin really.  tjat doesnt mean anything

You better not kill yourself.    Look at how young you are and how much time you have for things to change.   You never know what positive changes might occur in your life if you just stick with it.     The unrequited love of one forum member should not mean that much to you.   Killing yourself will not fix anything.   There are plenty of other hot lesbian girls out there for you, move on.

I don't want to see you go.   You are pretty damn funny at times.   I don't talk to you just because I find you attractive.   

jesus its NOT soph.

i have plenty other problems.

just having a hrder time coping weith them.  thought i was strong enough but obviously am not

[Lucifer]

Which is why you post about being publicly rejected by me when telling people you're going to kill yourse;f?

It id snothing to do with u.

U r just teh cherry on top of all my prolrms really.

responsibility, pah.  whatever.  stop trying tio be a bloody hero.  u r not going to make me stop feeling suicidal even if u DO send the police rounf my house.  my problems are NOTHING to do with u.  i have been fucked upo ever sice i was 9.  uthink soem words from u re going to change that?

sweetheart, no-one can change that except you, with loads of support from people who know what they're doing.  no-one who knows anything about it would expect you to.  and you know there are people who can give you that support, you need to reach out to those people. 

just start with the willingness to do so, because when you feel as bad as you do right now, i doubt you've even got that.

I have no support though, my psychiatrists have been fucked up

then we'll just have to look for other support, hon, and it is there.  you don't have to do this by yourself, no way.

[Sophgay]

And I didn't "publicly reject you" until you made me last night. ffs you practically asked me to

[Lucifer]

i have plenty other problems.

just having a hrder time coping weith them.  thought i was strong enough but obviously am not

NO-one is that strong, hon.  not on their own - yep, hark at me being a cracked record.   

[Persona]

.

[Sophgay]

And I didn't "publicly reject you" until you made me last night. ffs you practically asked me to

lmao

i am a masochisy after all

i will have to cipre by myself though.

always managed o, can do it now.  just have to puyll myself together reallty

Well you did. Constantly going on about it in a thread, then whining when I didn't reply. Now you're complaining I publicly rejected you? You asked for it.

[Alex179]

who cares if ouyr an admin?!

if u werent one would u give a fuck?

no.

exactluy.

therefore i thinkits pointless to hide behind the admin excuse.  its not like this site will usffer much when im gone.

Obviously you didn't understand what I was saying
I'm not using the admin thing as an excuse to pretend I care
I'm saying, regardless of whether I care or not, I believe I have some kind of responsibility BECAUSE I am an admin. It doesn't matter if the site will suffer or not, I don't give a fuck who you are - if you post that you're going to kill yourself, and I have contributed to that in some way, wtf do you expect me to do - nothing? Or is that what you want? You can threaten to kill yourself and I can sit ehre and feel bad and blame myself? I'm getting sick of this tbh. I have lost people to suicide before, if you think I'm just going to sit here and do nothing then you've got another thing coming

oh yeah poor u.

starbuline killed herself so ppl are meant to feel sorry for u when ill do the same

please!

u dont give a fuckj either way.  i dont CARE if ur an admin really.  tjat doesnt mean anything

You better not kill yourself.    Look at how young you are and how much time you have for things to change.   You never know what positive changes might occur in your life if you just stick with it.     The unrequited love of one forum member should not mean that much to you.   Killing yourself will not fix anything.   There are plenty of other hot lesbian girls out there for you, move on.

I don't want to see you go.   You are pretty damn funny at times.   I don't talk to you just because I find you attractive.   

jesus its NOT soph.

i have plenty other problems.

just having a hrder time coping weith them.  thought i was strong enough but obviously am not

I am sure that you have other problems, as indicated by some of your posts.   That one is more focused upon at the moment and it isn't really a problem imo.   Things can get better for you.   It will be difficult probably, but you can find your niche in life and support yourself financially.   That seemed to be your other problem, feeling like a leech.    I have struggled with that before.  You can go back to school right?

[Persona]

And I didn't "publicly reject you" until you made me last night. ffs you practically asked me to

lmao

i am a masochisy after all

i will have to cipre by myself though.

always managed o, can do it now.  just have to puyll myself together reallty

Well you did. Constantly going on about it in a thread, then whining when I didn't reply. Now you're complaining I publicly rejected you? You asked for it.

were gth fuck have i whined trhat u ejeced me??

i told u, my problems are NOTHING to do wirh u

[SovaNu]

you have support here. i'm no shrink but i'm here if you want to talk.

[thepeaguy]

I wanna go back to school so that I can rule the world someday.