I did it! I felt like shit mood wise and now I am starting to feel better thanks to my own imagination. Hmmm...its not quite done, I can feel it. I need to keep focusing on something relaxing.
* AllDayGlowRandy sings I am so excited, I just can't hide it.
* AllDayGlowRandy wishes you all a fuckn great day.
My mom says I am insensitive sometimes and delayed, no its just I feel too many of my own problems covering up things. I feel different emotions now, sadness for my poor grandmother. I got in a such a good mood state I felt her pain and my eyes watered yesterday, and my mom was shocked because usually I don't. She thinks I am just going through my years where I am ready for a banging. I had alot sooner than she thinks, I never said anything about it. Bad mood spells covered some that up to. I wish she would stop calling me AS infront of everyone, because it just does not quite fit. She did that at the nursing home, infront of one her friend's neighbors. Then she tells her about my pornography job. Fuck her! I am not embarassed about anything she says, although its gets on my nerves to a degree.