So, was there a point where you kinda
gave up on school for yourself?
I stayed on at school to do a-levels after my GCSE's (I left at 18), I then went on to college and did the first year of a teacher training course (which I got high marks for), but I left after the first year (partly because I realised I couldn't be a teacher, but also because I found each day I had to go and be around these people a trial.
When my older two kids were younger I went back to college, did more a-levels, and then started a midwifery course at university. I had the same problem with the people there that I always did at school (I assumed people were friends and I was too trusting-they gossiped about me or treated me as a mug- one 'friend' asked for help with her assignments but really wanted me to write them for her). It was whilst I was there that I found out about my son having AS and it was a tough time- as part of the course we had full time work placements, working shifts, and he couldn't cope with the constant changes in routine. So eventually I gave that up.
I want to go back to university in the future, but I know that I'll face the same challenges when I do- I can cope with being around people for a while but it doesn't take long before it all becomes too painful to cope with. Plus I know that I've developed a defence mechanism to protect myself from the people who assume I am stupid- I give up before I can fail (despite knowing that I've never failed at the other stuff I did stick at, but logic doesn't really come into this shit).