I am trying to make it as clear as possible. The truamas are hyperaurosing me. During these instances, any bodly fuctions, that are not immediately necessary suffer. (Certain cognitive functions)I will often mess up post unconscienously to prevent myself form triggering one of the truamas. I must edit my post to prevent this. People maid fun of me during school, 2 surgeries, the dx of cancer, and my mom;s bullshit truamaitized me.
I already had family issues, so automatically, getting maid fun of was a big fuckn deal. My mom married two times, both husbands were unstable emotionally. One was probably severly truamatized, from the special armed forces.( military) The fuckn guy abused my mom physically and verbally. The physical abuse was rape when she had cracked pelvis. To be fair, my mom verbally abused both of them, and agravated both their issues. My biological dad was an alcoholic, and my mom said he pointed a loaded shot gun at her head. My mom keeps saying, "I swear to god he has autism." He calmed down that habit, but he can be inconsiderate at times.
Getting told I have one year to live by doctors, because I have skin cancer, is truamatizing. I have maid it three years, and if I make 2 more I have a 50 percent chance of surviving. I did not like the 6 radioactive isotopes injected into me either. All of them done in continueously, and they really burned. They were trying look at my insides. I had surgery to remove some of the cancerous lymphocytes, and I left home with some recovery time. I had to wait 6 hours, with a poisioned body, to go into surgery for a ruptured appendix. I don;t actually know it was this long, my mom said it, and she tends to exaggerate. I should have died, if she is correct, in the waiting room. In the hospital the doctors thought I was going to die, so they called my family. Surgury is scary, because you may die. You might wake up during it and be paralyized too. That is two times I should have died, What can you infer about my health? You think it means my body is hot?
