Any chance you could stop sending me tedious PMs, its makes you come across even more pathetic, unstable and needy the more you send. Especially regarding what you say and your inhability to understand anything the way it is intended to be understood.
Can i suggest you see a new therapist, maybe a Psychiatrist who is honest and qualified enough to notice the way you behave as being unstable. (presuming you act the same way you do here, in reallife).
Your PMs are becoming as iritating as vaginal thrush, only theres no cream to get rid of that persistant itching.
Also you are coming across like an attenting seeking whiney little ho with your PMs regarding "oh its because of my traumas" "its my traumas", no you just simply dont understand things, and your looking for excuses to explain your inadequacy allround.
Ive encountered kids who were sexually molested daily for years, some whilst family members watched or planned it so they could make money, they developed all sorts of problems, self harming, eating disorders, intimacy issues etc etc and they didnt make excuses half as much as you do. So grow up and deal with it and your issues and stop making petty excuses.
Sorry if i seem harsh, but i dont have time for morons sending me silly PMs.