Ok, I will show what AS/ HFA things I used to do. They can't seem to get agree.. lol. Its time for me to stop hiding. My mom was the first one to find things on the internet that she thought described my odd behavior. I saw an old picture of me, and lol it was butt ugly. So much has changed, why just yesterday, I noticed my lips shrunk. I guess they were swollen, and my brother used to call me nigger lips. My mom does indeed have black person blood, but she is white. Its very rare, and mine is different. She has told me a few times that I resisted her touching me as a baby. Strike one! Later on in life I did not care so much, and I thought it was done. When I went in my therapists bathroom and washed my hands, the soap felt funny on my hands. It was irritating. I hated ties also because it felt like it was tickling me, but that did stop. I was rather quite and didnot make any jokes, smile, or talk much when I was younger. Strike two! They put me in a social skills class before they even though there was anything wrong. Stupid fucks! That was a waste of time. I used to have obessions with health, and would spend maybe 6 hours at time reading the books plus the ones at home. Strike three! I remember another clinical social worker say something like you seem to get this tunnel vision, but I am not so sure about that. If that was true today then I might need abilify for being psychotic, but I have second thoughts all the time and they don't tire me at all like they used to. Loud noise used to bother me, but ever since my mood stability went it up, I have music blasting. Strike four! I used to say "poke" to my mom and then poke her with my hard as a knife finger nails. I think that is strike five.
Touch has does not bother me anymore, and mom does infact come to me alot with her problems. I get rather upset at times to know how much she suffers. Working out and such is now a hobby, and I enjoy the new me alot! I smile alot now, and keep my mouth fairy shut. I am so full of energy that Jessica says I sound weird when I laugh. She says am always laughing, well I can't stop. I have approached an old cowoker in the store to chat, and if I was psychotic I would not bother. I was fliring with some drunk women yesterday for fun. Made fun of her to, went right above her head like a person with Aspergers syndrome. Then I made a perverted joke in response to something she said, and my mom got pissed at me. Treating me like someone with a disability, she made her usual comments. I didn't think I would be in any trouble because she is drunk, and there is quite a few beer cans sprawl next to her. She laughed, and made a joke back to me when I came back from the store to pick my bike up. I have been told by people to go spaken some woman on the ass when she bend over to go tend to her dog. I get that, they maybe think I am so hot, good chance will get away it. I didnot do it anyway. Still could get in trouble, especially if that woman is a depressed wanker. I would laugh if I was her. I told Jessica to slap me with a towel when I get out of the shower sometime and make me drop the towel. I was in the garage talking to Jessica yesterday for fairy two hours, and I here some guys next to me telling me to go inside. I don't have any fairy signal in my house, other wise I would have. I did pretend gay shit with them, and they did it back. I know when some is sarchastic, I always have. Confusion with pronouns was not a problem either. Jessica wants friends, and askes for their number. I told her no, they are going to try and confuse you, especially if they find out you have a disability. I told her no, but she would not listen. I probably didnot help, because I was the one who started it. I was making perverted comments while she was in the shower for them to here. I was not trying to aurose them, infact people think my jokes of all kinds are funny. I don't go overboard with the perversion, as I am not trying to be gay. I have given medical advice out to a few, sister, mom, Lue, some guy, and Brian. The guys want to know how to improve there sex life ok course.
