Polygamy

[Calandale]

I'd rather live as a hermit in the Mountains of New Mexico or on the slopes of Mt. St. Helens than having to deal with more than one wife!  Actually there's some interesting activity going around "Middle Sister" of the Three Sisters Volcano area.    Yeah, that's the ticket!

About the only reason that I wouldn't want an isolated lifestyle is EXACTLY the hope for what you dread. I've given up on finding friends (there are no gamers anymore - they all grew up/switched to computer games), and although the adoration of crowds appeals to me, I just can't afford to keep that up either.

[ozymandias]

I gave up on having friends IRL.  When the ones I did have dumped me when it became convenient!

[Calandale]

I just lost mine over time. Much of it was my own fault - but I could bear it
because I had my love. Now, I have nothing, and no idea how I could get
anything back. All the good that ever came to me happened as if by magic,
and the magic seems used up now.

 

[Litigious]

"With plenty of coloured lanterns
my way through the world I went.
They faded, quite and unnoticed,
and the beautiful came to an end.
I stopped -- pretty embarrassed --
then all had lost its glare.
But now I've been on this path,
that comes out of Nowhere,
and winds into Nothingness;
many years here I've gone --
without any coloured lanterns.
It's hard -- but can be done."

Translation of a poem of the Swedish poet Nils Ferlin.

[Calandale]

But...what do lanterns have to do with anything?
I don't want lanterns, I want the sun now.

[ozymandias]

I just lost mine over time. Much of it was my own fault - but I could bear it
because I had my love. Now, I have nothing, and no idea how I could get
anything back. All the good that ever came to me happened as if by magic,
and the magic seems used up now.

 

Been there, felt that....it sucks big time!   

[Litigious]

But...what do lanterns have to do with anything?
I don't want lanterns, I want the sun now.

Lanterns like the ones you have for a party. In this case symbols for the illusions of life.

[Calandale]

But...what do lanterns have to do with anything?
I don't want lanterns, I want the sun now.

Lanterns like the ones you have for a party. In this case symbols for the illusions of life.

As I said, I want the sun now. No illusions, just the pure good that I once chased. Problem
is, that's probably impossible without the strength to fully go insane - and I'm not sure that
I have that. I'm tired of failing to even try, and might just reach for some old worn out candles.

@ozy - but, I thought you were still married?

[ozymandias]

But...what do lanterns have to do with anything?
I don't want lanterns, I want the sun now.

Lanterns like the ones you have for a party. In this case symbols for the illusions of life.

As I said, I want the sun now. No illusions, just the pure good that I once chased. Problem
is, that's probably impossible without the strength to fully go insane - and I'm not sure that
I have that. I'm tired of failing to even try, and might just reach for some old worn out candles.

@ozy - but, I thought you were still married?

I'm referring to the years of disappointment before I got married.  Failure was my middle name!  In more ways than I can describe.  At least not here, the anti-emo task force would take me to task!

[Calandale]

I kinda understand, but the only point (after I had friends)
when I felt alone (in terms of relationships) I still had some.

I was young then, and had hopes as well. I mean, I sort
of do still - I know that I can still interest the purty things,
but I feel that I just wouldn't have the strength to devote
to falling in love anymore. Kind of makes the whole issue of
my expectations a joke, but I can't see having less than what
I got used to. Probably would always regret it.

On the other hand, I just don't think that I have anywhere
near the will to force myself to seek the divine knowledge
without being in far more horrible circumstances than I
am liable to face. There are times when I wish that they
would just lock me away from all the distractions, and see
what I could come up with.

[McGiver]

As to a mediator, I would hope for another relationship WITHOUT conflict. My wife and
I never fought after the first year or two.

about this time is when she got a boyfriend.

[Calandale]

As to a mediator, I would hope for another relationship WITHOUT conflict. My wife and
I never fought after the first year or two.

about this time is when she got a boyfriend.

A little infidelity always raises the guilt levels and makes someone more compliant.

[Pyraxis]

I've given up on finding friends (there are no gamers anymore - they all grew up/switched to computer games)

I don't know where people are looking for gamers, but you're the third person I've heard bitch this week that there are no decent, older, intelligent pen-and-paper gamers in the world anymore.

Or are you thinking strategy wargames? Cause I don't know too much about those circles.

[Pyraxis]

On the other hand, I just don't think that I have anywhere
near the will to force myself to seek the divine knowledge
without being in far more horrible circumstances than I
am liable to face.

Why? If you used to have it, what made you lose it?

[Calandale]

Or are you thinking strategy wargames? Cause I don't know too much about those circles.

Unfortunately. Never were many to begin with.

On the other hand, I just don't think that I have anywhere
near the will to force myself to seek the divine knowledge
without being in far more horrible circumstances than I
am liable to face.

Why? If you used to have it, what made you lose it?

Didn't ever have the will. Obviously, since one does not lose such knowledge.
But, I have less will for it now than I did before. Too easily swayed by the
net, and the demands of reality. Just put me in a cell somewhere, and I
shall learn if I can succeed or not.