I still hate my childhood bullies with a vengance.
One of the only things I give a shit about it being a shitload better than them and rubbing it in their face.
That would explain why you are attracted to power and money.
So you can zoom back into town in your fast car and fancy lifestyle and show them you made it.
I think it is possible to do it on your own Fiona, that would be an even better payback. Just don't become a stuck up asshole in the process.
You seem like you're under the impression that I want to spend someone elses money, and that is not the case at all. My attraction to those sort of men doesn't have anything to do with my personal feelings for people who have made me feel small. The two desires are mutually exclusive, but both there. (wanting to make my own fortune, and the fact i'm attracted to power)
I want money of my own for those reasons, not to date someone with it.
I want to become a stuck up arsehole, but only to these people. Give them a taste of their own medicine.