Just one quick bitch ...

[DirtDawg]

The energy is following Dunc to the Drivel, and it's not a kind I want to share.

  I2.

What's wrong, don't you want to talk about how much we should all hate jews and niggers and spics and dune coons and defile women for their femininity and get fucked up on drugs and not trust any government and glorify civil and war criminals and be BRAVE, either?

I am having a crisis of faith in this place.

Not really sure where to go next.

[Pyraxis]

So am I. And I don't know where to go either.

The only other remotely interesting AS forum to me is Gestalt, and I doubt it. I've skimmed the place before and I doubt it would hold me.

I may end up transitioning entirely onto sites with a creative focus, like the writing forum Hatrack or the one I'm trying to start. I just can't get into the mundane details of the lives of people I already know. And drama's good for the challenge, but there's shit for drama around here any more.

Is there anywhere pulling you?

[SovaNu]

i only have this place and the chaos as far as aspie sites go, then again i can hardly keep up with the two. posting apathy.

[TheoK]

I think MillaPillaMoominilla and I should become admins of DV and make that place the coolest and BRAVEST Aspie site on the whole fucking Intershite. 

[TheoK]

I just took some tramadol again. 

[SovaNu]

I think MillaPillaMoominilla and I should become admins of DV and make that place the coolest and BRAVEST Aspie site on the whole fucking Intershite. 

 

[DirtDawg]

So am I. And I don't know where to go either.

The only other remotely interesting AS forum to me is Gestalt, and I doubt it. I've skimmed the place before and I doubt it would hold me.

I may end up transitioning entirely onto sites with a creative focus, like the writing forum Hatrack or the one I'm trying to start. I just can't get into the mundane details of the lives of people I already know. And drama's good for the challenge, but there's shit for drama around here any more.

Is there anywhere pulling you?

Audio and fractals, mostly. Of interest to me - I've come into online contact with one of the original creators of the Apophysis program recently. I have learned a lot from his group. Probably did not notice I quit posting fractals, but I am somewhat humbled in this area, of late.


... but I've been writing a great deal lately, too. Nothing interesting, just re-compiling the journals I made, years past, during my several bouts with escapism - taking out the harsh references to the most scary parts and the sex to make them a little more kid-friendly. I promised my son he could read them when he got older and he has been showing interest since last fall.
As I look back over them though they are extremely harsh accounts of a man lost and getting into far more trouble than he bargained for. I don't intend to hide the originals forever - some of my best poetry is hidden within those pages - but I feel that they need some toning down to his level of maturity.
My journals are pretty fucking explicit and my descriptions of some of the rough things that I saw are quite detailed, dark and likely disturbing to a pubescent mind.
For instance, I need to rewrite parts of one of them using more funny language about the farting donkeys that we rode across the mountains and how their backbones hurt your ass, instead of dwelling over almost a hundred pages about an Indian family's daughter being taken by a pack of coyotes and the community's ensuing four day chase and slaughter of the entire pack.

[Peter]

Webpages keep taking 20-60 seconds to load tonight.  The problem's the same on Firefox and IE, and the speeds on my torrents are just fractions of a KB/s.  I should get a better ISP (I'm with BT Yahoo!), but I'm afraid of being stuck with dialup while it gets transferred to another company, especially if they cock it up and it takes weeks.

[odeon]

The energy is following Dunc to the Drivel, and it's not a kind I want to share.

  I2.

Eh?

[odeon]

The energy is following Dunc to the Drivel, and it's not a kind I want to share.

  I2.

What's wrong, don't you want to talk about how much we should all hate jews and niggers and spics and dune coons and defile women for their femininity and get fucked up on drugs and not trust any government and glorify civil and war criminals and be BRAVE, either?

I am having a crisis of faith in this place.

Not really sure where to go next.

Sometimes it gets a bit slow but it's a cyclic thing, usually. It comes and goes.

[Pyraxis]

Eh?

Translation: Pyraxis is feeling bored and discouraged by the latest trends at I2.

Here's hoping the cycle moves on soon.

[TheoK]

We had something called Damnedvillage, which could have been a new start, but people didn't care a shit about it.

[Pyraxis]

That is not true. I cared quite a bit about it, as may have been evident by the kinds of things I posted about there.

However, it drowned in its own drama, mostly thanks to Gaara.

[Pyraxis]

Audio and fractals, mostly. (...) slaughter of the entire pack.

That was what I wanted to know. Thank you.

There are a lot of things I want to say. About how I write fantasy because (among other reasons) there isn't much interesting to write about in my real life; but that that may be about as true as your journals not being interesting. About how I wish somebody would resist the knee-jerk response of "Have some confidence! Of course you're interesting!" long enough to acknowledge that passionate writing is nothing without skill and experience. About how I set out to live enough to find things worth writing about, and still worry that it hasn't been near adequate.

None of this quite captures what's in my head, but it's the best I can do tonight.

[Parts]

sickness sucks