Been listning to some oldschool stuff, Fields of the Nephilim, and Carl McCoy's splitoff band the nefilim. Particularly a song called 'laura', that I've always loved, as it makes me think of a girl I knew at my first spazz school, LFA lass called laura, thats got this cute ass fountain of youth kind of effect about her, both young at heart in that she carries a light heart if that makes sense, and still looks in her youngest teens at about 33-34yo. Gorgeous girl, I've not seen her often since I left the school, and I miss her a lot. I need to get her address from another friend of mine who by sheer coincidence, because as a kid she had ADHD or ADD, kel, got to get her address from kel again so we can pay laura another visit. She is one of a tiny, tiny number of people I know I could give over myself in full, if laura would, when asked, wish to take me as her own. Because I have loved her, although even now she doesn't know it, for many, many, many years, ever since we were about 10-11 on my part and maybe 12-13 on hers, in my LFA school. Always have had deep feelings for her, and I'd love for us to get properly reacquainted and then to ask her if she might want me as something more, tell her finally what I didn't have the guts at that young age back then, that if she only wishes to reach out and pick the lestat-fruit from it's tree, then every last bite is hers, and guaranteed tender:) Fuck...every time I listen to that FOTN song 'laura' I think of her and it kinda pulls at my heart-strings if that makes sense; because she is just the kindest, warmest, sweetest young lady you could ever hope to meet. Tiny, physically, very, very petite, kinda light brown-ey blonde hair and a high-pitched squeaky kinda voice, probably because she is...well...tiny. And a genuine pleasure just to sit beside and speak with, her voice, her smile is enough to warm the coldest or most shattered hearts, if only for a time, whilst one is there by her side, and carries her memory still in their mind (which I always have, and always will, even if, if I'm lucky enough that kelli still knows where to find her, and I'm lucky enough that she might consider giving me a chance to be hers)....shes kinda...well...a girl who is like a warm fire to a cold soul, you spend time in Laura's company and its like one's heart and soul are there warming their metaphorical hands besides a warm coal fire in a cozy chair in a nice comfy warm room:)
AFAIK she was single, last time I saw her, which is surprising in a ways, just considering how sweet, kind, funny (in a laughing with her, or laughing inside, just...just because Laura is Laura, and she is food for the soul, if that makes sense, a being on this earth that cannot help but bring joy to those lucky enough to be honoured with a moment of her time.
The song itself, is here: 'fields of the nephilim-'laura'
Love this song, have since I first heard it, partially for the personal reasons mentioned above, and because its got a real catchy riff to it too.
