I don't mean to disappear.

[Phallacy]

It seems like I have a habit of coming back every 6 months and so, making a few shitposts, then disappearing from these forums. I guess that's a good thing, because I was a complete jackass years ago. But not a good thing because I just can't bring myself to post here anymore. Or anywhere. I might rarely make a stupid post somewhere on Reddit here and there, but that's it for my social presence. I tried to pretend to be Darksydephil, but no one on here knows who he is and don't seem to care much for Internet "personalities". Well, neither do I, DSP is an exception for me, as he is something else.

These days, I just do fuck all but play trucking sims and watch anime. Yeah, I know I'm pathetic. You'd think I'd come here and brag about how I graduated with a networking degree and working an OK job somewhere. Maybe even have my own car. But it's not going to happen on its own, I guess. I'm 25 years old, and I'm still in the same place in my life as I was when I was 18 years ago. Well, technically, I'm in my 3rd apartment now. At least I've gotten more mature and less of a jackass and whiner, right? Right?!? Well, at least I'm better at keeping it all bottled up and shit. I'm a bit scarred from my days of being "pig fucker Pentygram" on here, to be honest.

Well, sorry to just abruptly end this stream of consciousness here. But I wanted to post SOMETHING here, get a few of my thoughts out there, to let people on here know that I'm around. I don't ever MEAN to disappear, it just happens. Well, see you guys whenever I build up the courage to make my next post on here, I guess.

[Yuri Bezmenov]

You continue to make progress Penty which is the most important thing.

It's been slightly more active here the last few weeks and I' sure that people would appreciate your posts.

Try sticking around for a while, you might like it here now, the dynamic here is different than it has been in the past.

[Walkie]

hey   Plenty of we Aspies are "career losers" , ya know? That's nothing to be ashamed of round here.
Personally, I've got 30 years on you, and I still don't know what I want to be when i grow up. I guess I've missed the boat, huh?

Just be yourself.  People are always more likable when they're just being themselves. Yeah, even you.

Hope you stick around longer this time, and find the courage to just be you.

Thanks for the post.

-Walkie

[Icequeen]

I'm still waiting to grow up.

You're doing good, you're surviving...and that alone is a big plus some days. I was close to 30 before I even left home.

I'm a bit scarred from my days of being "pig fucker Pentygram" on here, to be honest.

You shouldn't be.

I'll bet half of us were the same or maybe even worse at some point in our lives. Hell I think I lost almost 5 years from age 18-22, I don't even remember half of the stuff I did, nor do I probably want to.   

[Queen Victoria]

I have missed you SOOOOOOOOOO much.  Please stay around.  We're a bit older now and somehow not quite so confrontational.  Except for one unnamed member.

[Jack]

Welcome back.

[Pyraxis]

Agreed, welcome back.

[renaeden]

I lived with my parents until I was 36, heh. Give yourself some credit for being independent.

I would like to see you post more.

[Graelwyn]

Welcome back.
I relate to how you feel... I spend most days feeling an utter waste of space because of having not achieved what I had hoped.
But... you are here and you are alive, and that counts for something, right?
I agree with others, that the dynamics here are very different these days, or I would not be around.

[odeon]

Welcome back, anyway.

[Phallacy]

Thanks. I might actually stick around this time for a bit. 

And I kinda became independent by force. I was released from state custody when I turned 18, meaning that my foster mother stopped getting paid to keep me around. She helped me get into an apartment of my own, apply for disability as an adult, taught me how to ride the bus, so I was able to fend for myself. If I had different circumstances, I'd probably stay at home until I was 30+ myself.

[renaeden]

I am glad your foster mother didn't just kick you out and leave you to fend for yourself. Because that happens.

[Al Swearegen]

It seems like I have a habit of coming back every 6 months and so, making a few shitposts, then disappearing from these forums. I guess that's a good thing, because I was a complete jackass years ago. But not a good thing because I just can't bring myself to post here anymore. Or anywhere. I might rarely make a stupid post somewhere on Reddit here and there, but that's it for my social presence. I tried to pretend to be Darksydephil, but no one on here knows who he is and don't seem to care much for Internet "personalities". Well, neither do I, DSP is an exception for me, as he is something else.

These days, I just do fuck all but play trucking sims and watch anime. Yeah, I know I'm pathetic. You'd think I'd come here and brag about how I graduated with a networking degree and working an OK job somewhere. Maybe even have my own car. But it's not going to happen on its own, I guess. I'm 25 years old, and I'm still in the same place in my life as I was when I was 18 years ago. Well, technically, I'm in my 3rd apartment now. At least I've gotten more mature and less of a jackass and whiner, right? Right?!? Well, at least I'm better at keeping it all bottled up and shit. I'm a bit scarred from my days of being "pig fucker Pentygram" on here, to be honest.

Well, sorry to just abruptly end this stream of consciousness here. But I wanted to post SOMETHING here, get a few of my thoughts out there, to let people on here know that I'm around. I don't ever MEAN to disappear, it just happens. Well, see you guys whenever I build up the courage to make my next post on here, I guess.

Hey Penty

I have missed you SOOOOOOOOOO much.  Please stay around.  We're a bit older now and somehow not quite so confrontational.  Except for one unnamed member.

Queen Victoria means me, Penty. She is pretending that I alone am the only one who is confrontational on Intensitysquared and being nice not mentioning me by name. Rather than making it obvious to everyone who "that person" is. Better to talk about me in third person and treating me like some Voldemorte type character.

But you know me and I you. You've come a long way mate and I am not alone in hoping to see you around. You will be a good addition around here. BTW I know Dark Syde Phil and he is an absolute tool 

["couldbecousin"]

  Welcome back!   


  Don't do the comparison thing, it's pointless.  I'm 50, grew up with advantages, finished college,
  "ought to" have achieved great things ... bah.  I'm a low-skilled food service worker,
  I live alone in a crummy apartment, I never got a driver's license, and if I didn't have a little
  interest income every month from my father's estate, I'd still be sweating the rent every month. 
  Know what? ... Fuck it, I'm not hurting anyone.  I'm doing OK.  I'm still learning and evolving
  at my own pace.  I'm not over yet.  Neither are you.  Some of us just bloom later.
  Don't worry about what everyone else is doing.  Keep looking for things that engage your mind. 

['andersom']

It's good to see you pop up. Even if it would be just for a few weeks.

CBC is right, don't do the comparing thing with others. On the other hand, now and then do look back from where you came from. You've come a long way. In your own pace.

And that there will be a setback now and then, so be it. Spazzes do not go by the book. You show that you keep getting back on your feet to go on. That is what counts.

Hope you stick around. If not, please do pop up again in half a year or so, to say hello.