Would you like me to help you heal from your sickness or are you trying to make my "me" sick? What's it like to control a fool that can only offer you?
"sickness"? Which "sickness" are you referring to? Is it true that you bleed? Is it true that you cry? Is a part of yourself really hating on who you are, or is it just a user from 4chan, ED, or whatever the fuck you're from just doing this for shits and giggles?
Seriously..... we all have flaws, some of it might be sickness, some of it might be a disorder that we've learned to accept or just hate ourselves for.
I hated on myself for being different in High School.... where did it get me? No where.... why? Because I tried acting normal all day, and it made me miserable. Its not necessary to beat yourself up just because you hate yourself, or you hate your mother, or whoever was the "Narcissist in the family."
Isn't there anything that the NHS does in your neck of the woods? Couldn't you go see a therapist about your issues instead of clamouring the message board with your Gas can this, or "Why won't you let me die " that.
Just quit trying to be butthurt about something that you're stuck with.