Me too.
We really only take in dogs that need rescuing, but mostly, these days they are too big for our yard/house.
I too want huge fucking dog, and a goddamn pack of twenty, BUT!!! ... but I have to be realistic. I do not want to bring an animal into this house who will only suffer for our attempts to rescue it.
We need to find a dog who will be happy in a typical city sized yard and mostly live inside with people. It is difficult.
Wish I could save them all, but I can not.
I always wanted a whole pack of dogs just have two now and my wife thinks that's one too many. My mother lives with one of my sisters and between the two of them they have five.
When I was in my late twenties, I and a couple of "friends" rented a ranchhome in south Texas owned by Mexican Nationals who needed an American tax write-off.
It was an amazing place to live, open quarter acre roof/deck (imagine a Walmart store with a roof, but open sides), party area with fire things (forget what they are called, but you can use them for heat or cooking) spaced every eighty feet or so, parking areas under cover, palm trees, avocado trees, olive trees and banana trees everywhere, several outbuildings, two maid's quarters, etc.
It had three hundred seventy acres with it that we had to manage as part of the rent. We mainly had to take a tractor around to cut the buffalo grass if the horses did not eat it. Also a huge barn, capable of housing forty animals. We were just animals ourselves, hunting all the time, standing watch, barbecuing every night almost in one of the huge chimichanga brick things, etc.
Anyway, I had my closest chance to have a pack of dogs back then, but keeping them alive and at home was the hard part. There were already packs of coyotes and wild dogs living in the area, marauding every night. Trying to keep enough dogs that were domesticated was almost impossible, because the dogs would choose to go wild and join the packs rather than choose human companionship. Not sure why domesticated dogs would go against "the hand that feeds them," but they do when offered other options.
Not sure how much of this time in my life I have shared, but it was the time, I know I have mentioned when I witnessed four people murdered at a river club, then two days later, two more people were shot before my eyes.
Two days later I had a bullet just miss me, but I had brick spray from the missed shot rip the side of my face like instant rash with rock. I ducked and ran, came back for my car later. Then had to deal with months of DEA, Texas State Police, FBI, etc all questioning me since I was the only one who had a story that fit the facts of the case. I was sober.
Anyway, it is hard to keep dogs in large quantities. If you have the area to support them they are constantly called upon to go wild. They seem to seek more than we can give them.
