Okay so I couldn't stay away for long. Doing a hell of a lot better than I was when I exited...lets just say I was very close to checking myself into a hospital, but decided against it because I hate drugs and didn't want to be doped up. I think I will ask my therapist what he thinks. I am like....very delicately sane....but worried anything could set me off again.
I am pretty sure my chemistry got all fudged up....perpetual shock and survival mode. I think my body was trying to prevent an onset of deep depression by putting me in a continuos state of high adrenalin. WOuldn't that be funny if my body reacted against depression, like an immunity thing?
Sucks being spazzy sometimes :/