^More of these? lol
Fiona, sorry you feel so down. It is awful to feel that way. Killing yourself is not an option, my doctor always tells me that if I'm feeling sad.
You are not the only one to feel ugly. I don't post photos of myself on the internet very often because I feel ugly a lot of the time. I just feel that no one needs to see that!
But now I am quite used to being ugly and I don't care who thinks it in rl anymore. I used to have other kids tell me to my face that I was ugly when I was at school. I still feel annoyed by it but there is nothing I can do except get on with things now.
You have had loads of people tell you that you are pretty. Does that not have any value to you?
I wish you felt happier about yourself. But you are in charge of that.
I have found that it is virtually impossible to judge one's own or anyone else's personality because there are so many facets. You have shown many good facets. GA has told me a few times that he thinks you are a good person, worth getting to know.
You are right, it does take effort to get people to like you. It is the same for everyone. It may seem that it is easier for certain people to get others to like them - effortless even - but they still have to make the effort, they probably do that in different ways, though. There is also trying to make too much effort. I have done this in the past and it scares people away.
Self esteem is important and if you have none it is probably a good idea to see a psych about it. Not for pills but to talk about what you feel and get some advice on what you can do to feel better.
You have probably had someone tell you all this before but I still hope that this helps you.
