I was in Stockholm and had my lips done, again. I hope this is the last time.
After being under anesthesia, I feel like when I was a really young kid and could wake up and be trapped in a nightmare while half awake. It's what hell must feel like, if such a place existed. Agony. I would prefer to never do it again.
I can't think of many things more unpleasant than waking up from anesthesia, especially after not having gotten enough normal sleep. Maybe I'm just oversensitive but I feel like trapped in a state between hell and reality. I can't focus. I can see but it still feels like being blind and muddled. I can't connect things properly, A to B etc. Can't speak properly. Can't move my body. The worst part lasts for 2-3 hours. Then I feel anxious and restless for at least a day. I'm still feeling it.
One interesting fact is that Michael Jackson had his own anestethic doctor with him on some of his later tours, and just before he died he had apparently been asking for one again just to "be able to sleep". I would rather take a bullet in the head than to use anesthesia to get sleep. If it wasn't for my vanity and dislike of my natural looks I would have avoided it all together.
