*attempts to sigh in a masculine way, can't quite*
I thought you were the stand-offish one.
I am the standoffish one. It's just not always by conscious choice, so when I'm secretly scrambling not to hide, I tend to hope that others will have sufficient ESP to come interact with me anyway.
And while I have no idea of the implications of an almost masculine sigh, it's still good to know this is all in my head.
I am guilty of similar behavior at times, too. Rather than drifting towards some median, though, I tend to swing wildly between both extremes of intro- and extro-, while trying to interact. It's not pretty.
BTW, dramatically sighing for effect shunts away some aspects of old school, movie-hero masculinity (in my opinion) no matter how it is done.
Only meant that I keep covering this ground and it remains a mess.
I feel as if I have opened floodgates, mostly, especially if you compare how much I have posted about myself in comparison to how much most others post about themselves.
I like that. I know everyone's different, but for me it would take a lot of balls to post about cremating an ant queen. I find little space for the sacred amongst the chaos of human interaction.
It's sort of like what you said a few days ago. You have tried everything you can think of to start a conversation. It comes to nothing, mostly. I had hoped that the unlikely event of finding her body, buried in knee-deep snow, while I was mindlessly toiling to just get rid of the snow, would be intriguing to someone. I felt like it meant something that she was discovered by someone who knew what to do.
It is often small instances that inspire great wonder in my mind, but it is my lack of ability to express myself that keeps me from properly conveying that wonder to another person.
ToM is a bitch, as Odeon says.
(that's me, on the left)