K. But I still don't actually care about "making it"
Yes you do. You post here all day long. You care very much about "making it" here.
LOL. Srsly?
(See! I don't hotlinking to post memes!)
Seriously
You are
desperate for attention. It's why you are here. It's why you do everything that you do. It is not only dark and cold in Daddy's basement, but also lonely. You can only pretend for so long that you have anything approaching a life outside these forums, and these forums can't stand you, so you find
this place where rumor has it you "can't be banned" so you figure you will set down roots here and be as big an asshole as you possibly can be, because you want to test these boundaries before really allowing yourself to become emotionally tied to yet another forum that might eventually kick you out. Problem with this scenario is that by the time you realize that you actually won't be banned you have made everybody hate you and you can no longer get what you want out of the place.
You aren't the first to do this. You aren't even the first this month. Those of us who have been around a while see this repeated over and over again. It's boring unless we take the opportunity for target practice.
You won't fit in here for the same reasons you didn't fit in at the other whiny emo sites. For the same reasons you don't fit in at a job, or in school, or at the grocery store, or anywhere out in polite society. It's because you are damaged. It's because you have nothing to offer. It's because you are worthless, add nothing to those you interact with and learn nothing from your experiences. A lot of aspies spend a lifetime sucking at the teat, living with Mommy and Daddy until they die, and spending all their free time "socializing" behind an anonymous screen name on a "special" board made just for them. It's not the worst thing in the world I suppose. Not everyone contributes to the world. Not everyone should.