Started a methadone self-taper from my pain meds, to break the ball and chain (metaphorically speaking) that the doctors have forced on me, that way I can take them only when I really can't avoid it, rather than forced to take them several times a day, every day.
Got several hundred tablets off...someone helpful to whom I am most grateful...for less than a pound a piece, significantly less, who had them overnighted to me, to make sure I'd not withdraw from my regular pain meds that I get on prescription, and in fact, I got them when I woke up, right the moment I awoke, the delivery came, priority shipping thrown in free.
Still figuring out what the minimum and what the comfortable middle ground dosage is...I deliberately overshot it today, since whilst I have had methadone 2-3 individual doses or so before, I've never had the chance to explore it fully, figured I'd go for 3-4 recreational doses just to explore it and feel it out a little, including a near legendarily euphoric combination, IV methadone with IV cyclizine in the same syringe, said to very well replicate an almost extinct, again more or less legendary opioid, related to methadone, called dipipanone, although its available, barely ever prescribed due to massive euphoric and abuse potential. I figure I'll try this combination once at least, while the opportunity is there, since I have loads of cyclizine, scripted for my stomach issues. Then, get down to tapering after I've had my fun a couple of times.
I'm feeling better already actually, it feels a lot more 'functional' and less sedating and motivation-sapping than morphine/oxycodone mixture as I usually take on rx. Soon as I get some space and time to myself, where nobody can walk into a cloud of fumes or anything, I've got some chemistry work to do, and I'm going to go ahead and do it.
"Is she gone yet?"