Every time I try to do something that would benefit me, I fuck it up. Self-destruction is the only thing that agrees with me.
*sends over a truckload of mints*
fixed.
Don't be so hard on yourself, love. You're stuck in a cycle of negative thinking but you know you are so much more than that and it will pass. You learn from it, you move on.
I'm just tired of hurting everyone/everything around me.
But you haven't done that. That's what you're projecting/assuming but that doesn't make it truth. Trust my thought process right now instead of yours because I know you well and I'm on the outside looking in
I have. I haven't told you most of the recent events in my life because I know you have a lot of your own shit on your mind. I just keep hurting people and if what I'm thinking comes true this week, then that's another person to add to my list. If only I could purely destroy myself; I'd love that. But I take other people down first and I despise that about me.
Sorry everybody. I think I'm having an emo meltdown of sorts. I should probably log out before I embarrass myself further.