If you are going to look for a relationship, one thing I've seen you say here is that you have been afraid and pushed people away because of this. If your looking to be in one, you need to let yourself be open to one in the first place, assuming the right one can be found. And if your head starts coming up with petty excuses to throw away an opportunity actually worth taking, such as say, I seem to recall you refused one guy because he liked a TV show you don't. If you start on at yourself with that kind of petty self-excuse-making, ignore them.
Also don't waste time pissing around with wiccan stuff, spell-books, incantations, grimoires, fetishes (I.e the 'poppet' or voodoo doll meaning of the word, according to its african liguistic origin, rather than its modern sexual meaning), black pacts or anything of that nature.
And a little advice if I may? be careful, and be sincere in what you wish for, lest you get it.
But set yourself a goal, and work towards it. Be practical, and mindful of that which you wish to achieve, work out who, how, why and if your compatible or not. If not, why not? hopefully that will save you some heartache,