I need to forget everybody, and realise I have no-one, truly.
I need to get out of this.
That isn't a suicide threat, btw. Or a plee for sympathy, even though I would love it.
No. I need to stop clinging onto false hope. If Dox was for me he would talk to me and be there for me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't care at all about me or my situation. It hurts. I have nobody and need to rely on myself.