This probably isn't much of a surprise to anyone who's read many of my posts, but I've came to the conclusion that I'm almost certainly gay. I've spent most of my life trying to convince myself that I was straight. My parents and sisters are slightly homophobic and most of my friends made a lot of jokes about gays, so being gay was never really an option for me. Although I knew I had a major crush on my female best friend I somehow managed to convince myself this was a perfectly heterosexual thing
. Since moving away from my friends and parents I've had a good chance to really think about what I really am without worrying about negative reactions from the people I'm close to.
The only people I really know here are my aunt, uncle and cousin and I decided to tell them today. They were all very supportive, it wasn't much of a surprise to any of them. One of the things that helped me realize I was gay was some of the questions some people had asked me on this site. I had been sure that I was bi, but having to think about some of the questions people were askig me helped me understand that was unlikely. So thanks
I've always had a problem with sex, and at least part of the problem in hindsight was the fact that I just didn't want to sleep with guys. I do kind of want to sleep with girls. When I walk down the street or drive around on my scooter I always find myself eyeing up woman, but never guys. All my crushes are towards women, but not towards guys. I do think some guys are very cute, I think Rafael Nadal is very good looking but I just wouldn't want to sleep with him.
I've no plans to come "out of the closet" to anyone IRL other than the 3 folk I mentioned. I'm supposed to be meeting my best friend very soon and I certainly won't be telling her. I definately won't be letting people in town know either, as this is a fairly small and very backwards town.
I'm not really sure why I'm starting a thread about it on the siite. I know it's probably a bit self-important making an anouncement to people who don't really know me, and who probably already knew I was gay before I did.