...but I was racist, Scrap. I genuinely thought blacks were inferior, guised under the false pretense of being "un-PC". I denied if of course, but it was there in my mind. I didn't go full nazi like Lit, but I did definitely believe in a lot of the far right nonsense at the time. Unless you're psychic and somehow can contradict me on my own experiences, that is.
The process to get where I am was not some government endorsed brainwashing campaign or anything like that - I'm stubborn as fuck. It took years of education and dispelling of misinformation to get where I am. Nobody shamed me into it, I just mentally matured and realised I was being an idiot. Learning to think critically, have media awareness etc. certainly helped too. This is why I know you're full of shit Scrap, because I was like you.
The very fact you think it's okay to say shite like the N word, especially in the context you use it, is why you're racist. Keep being in denial of it all you want, though.