what a crappy name. That wouldn't sell well in a world full of apsies that see words visually.
I'm itching really bad apparently this is a very common withdrawl effect. I feel like some heroin addict i'm rubbing myself and covered in scratches i get paranoid at night and in my peripheral eye vision I think the pine cones on the ground are little rats. I know it's the withdraws. i'm able to stand it. The days are fine. I made myself eat today I crammed in my calories at lunch with some chicken from the deli and a pack of baby bell cheese.
I decided on protein instead of energy drinks and candy. I would eat candy because food smell makes me sick. Like the pizza place and my dad cooking pork chops. Candy doesn't have a smell but its not good for me. Drrrrrrrr.
i'm losing inches which isn't too bad i'm only eating what I need. Im gonna try just eating more protein instead of loading up on sugar. I want to be thinner but not a bone rack.
My employment relies on my stocky structure. I am seeking a landscaping/construction job at the moment. Employers judge on appearance. it's sad but they do.
It's been one and a half weeks. No psych issues have happened yet but this itching right now is driving me bat shit. I'm gonna go have a bath maby it will make it feel better. it will sooth it for a while. I'm itchy everywhere. I can't type cause im itching so much.
