oh! i have nice update!
So, something happens to me, makes me hear things and feel like nothing exists but pain -
dunno what happens but i have a really nice psychiatrist and she has worked with me and my aversion to medication, and FINALLY ive been on a good regime for several months now. i take a smallish/medium dose of an antipsychotic, and i take a chemical variant of adderall, and im good. the downside to everything is that i started vaping 1 year ago (nicotine) to deal with school shite. and recently i started vaping (THC) at night to deal with the "nothing exists but pain" sensation that comes on from school shite stress.
so school is probably not healthy for me.
but maybe i will make it.
at least, i take my proper meds everyday, and try to do less vaping when i am doing better.
i am pretty pleased with my proper regime
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and yes, took my meds today ^_^