Heavy coffee.
I am considering breaking my alcohol fast, though. I have been off of all alcohol for almost nine months. There are parts of me that wonder why I am thinking about this and parts of me that are preparing for a deep dive.
Not sure which part is louder.
One of the scariest moments of my life was when I was a member of Overeaters Anonymous and wanted to eat something that wasn't on my eating plan. All of a sudden I wanted a drink so badly that I could see the golden amber of the liquid, smell the alcohol, feel the coolness and weight of the heavy glass in my hand and feel the sharp smoothness of the alcohol in my mouth and its sting as it trickled down my throat. The thing is that I've been drunk very few times in my life, probably because food is my drug of choice. That is when I realized how close to becoming an alcoholic I was by trying to overcome my food addiction.
I realize that you and I are different people and I may not be walking in the same shoes, but we do shop at the same shoe store, just in different departments. Hang in there.
