i've been thinking about getting some sort of aneasthetic, you're right. just to give me a break, while i wait for this bloody referral.
i've got an old student of mine on the case, too - he does reiki and hypnotherapy (not convinced about the first, know the second works), and he says he's going to think about what i need and construct some sort of treatment plan for me. not hypno, though, cos that will just make whatever the problem is manifest somewhere else.
i'm so sick of this now, though, that i'm willing to try most things, just for a bit of respite. trouble is, if i go the doctor's, she'll just suggest systemic steroids (i.e. injections), which will make me put on shitloads of weight, and that'll just stress me out the same.
can't bloody win, can i? roll on this referral, so i can get some therapy - i still believe i just need to be able to cry again.