i am ok... depressed lately, maybe it's the winter, so called winter, but it gets dark. still drinking, just had three beers and have two more in the fridge. i drink as much as i can afford and stuff, so it's not too much.
i always feel like i'm going crazy but lately i've been entertaining some suicidal thoughts, purely fantasy as i can't leave before i watch my TV shows... i find myself hoping there was a way to die anyhow. maybe it's cabin fever and feeling like things are only gonna get worse with the move.
i'm afraid moving will make me crazy cuz i'm so OCD as it is.