I will be 42 this year

[Christopher McCandless]

I turned 38 the other day. 

Maybe its time for you to settle down and sort yourself out a marriage and kids to keep you safe in your old age.

Now, I prefer an arsenal instead. 

The problem is you are not prepared enough to use it, it seems.

We must get our own Aspie army first. Sufferings must be worth it. 

The last thing we want is to have our names put to it. We need a movement whose objective is to change society and come up with a new system of political obligation.

[P7PSP]

Getting Aspies together in an Army is an ambitious undertaking TheoK. If you manage it try to be more like the Brigate Rosse instead of the pussy Weather Underground. Jane Alpert did more damage by herself than the Weather Underground did with more members. Communism being a shit philosophy aside, I would be embarrassed to admit membership in an outfit that had most of their members wanted for conspiracy to riot. Fuck me, I've been arrested for worse than that POS charge.

[TheoK]

Hm...she seems brave. But would you get away with 27 months in these terrorist times? 

[Christopher McCandless]

Getting Aspies together in an Army is an ambitious undertaking TheoK. If you manage it try to be more like the Brigate Rosse instead of the pussy Weather Underground. Jane Alpert did more damage by herself than the Weather Underground did with more members. Communism being a shit philosophy aside, I would be embarrassed to admit membership in an outfit that had most of their members wanted for conspiracy to riot. Fuck me, I've been arrested for worse than that POS charge.

An army would be an insane way of doing it - really we need something more underground. One strategy might be to write a social code and then just enforce it arbitrarily, by any means necessary. The NT's would really have a hard time stopping that one

[Christopher McCandless]

Hm...she seems brave. But would you get away with 27 months in these terrorist times? 

If you play spazz for the court appearence then it should be 0 months.

[P7PSP]

Hm...she seems brave. But would you get away with 27 months in these terrorist times? 

Not likely, if you take examples like Gordon Kahl or Walter Leroy Moody you can see that, here in the US at least, you have time for one, maybe two or three actions at most, before you get nailed hard! Kahl was killed in a shootout, Moody is doing 7 life sentences plus 365 years and Tim McVeigh was executed a few years ago. Basically, if you are not willing to give your life for Praxis then don't do it.

[Peter]

I turned 25 last week.

Sounds depressing tbh.

It was.

Refrain from being your usual prosaic self and just get hammered.

Agreed!

I disagree.

Get a bag and beat the fucking shit out of it (you need a good one), kick it into a rhythm you can keep up with, then keep kicking and punching it until you are near unconciousness with good feeling endorphins, then go jack yourself to sleep.

He needs a more social birthday I feel.

I doubt that either of us know him well enough to continue this discussion without his input, but if social shit doesn't work well, then building oneself to a pinnacle is often even better. I personally need both, but I am seldom willing to stop, even after I know I should not go any farther in either direction. I can always rest later and approaching exhaustion is always a license to sleep.

Getting drunk and/or being sociable don't make good celebrations for me.  Unless I'm in a good mood before I start drinking, I just end up depressed/more depressed.  I've also come to regret the vast majority of my social encounters, so I'd rather not add to the list of things that swirl around my head from time to time and make me feel shit about myself, plus I get really tired after being sociable, and not a good sort of tired; more a feel-like-crap tired that can last for a few days, depending on the event.

Avoiding people altogether and just doing things I'm interested in works for me some of the time, but it depends on how I feel, and often I run out of motivation and inspiration for my personal interests and get bored and depressed.  The meds help me to keep myself busy and mentally active, but they have their limits and some days are going to be shitty whether or not I take them.  Exercise works when I'm feeling angry, but my anger has mostly burned itself out and isn't the same constant driving force it was a few years ago.  Exercise when I'm feeling shitty and down is a non-starter, since at those times I'm lacking motivation, my mind is fuzzy, my muscles are weak and uncoordinated and exercise just ends up making me feel nauseous and more tired and shitty.

So yeah, I get kind of stuck when it comes to figuring out how to celebrate things.

[punkdrew]

I turned 45 last November. It was pretty good except that we had arranged to meet a friend at a local restaurant. I had told the friend to expect us around 8 PM--she's an old friend of Jen's and so knows about her tendency to run late. Anyway the friend decided to show up on time and we were an hour late. Jen was so upset driving there she nearly ran over two dogs that this guy was walking in our mobile home park. We got to the restaurant as they were closing but they let us sit. The friend in question had already eaten (I think) and didn't seem upset about our lateness. BTT I was hammered so I stopped giving a fuck and gorged myself on catfish and fried okra.

I felt good about it then but right now I am very ambivalent about my continued existance. Maybe having a kid would help but J is too old so adoption would have to be the way and from what I've heard about all the hoops you have to go through--plus the fact I'm unemployed ATM--I don't think it would work. Not right now anyway. But I'd rather be a father to a kid who needs one than bring another kid onto this planet.

[Pissgai]

He needs a more social birthday I feel.

Hardon might be a shitstirring fuck, but at least he knows how to enjoy himself, unlike some. 

When I get my paycheck, I'll be sure to make the most of it.

[DirtDawg]

I turned 38 the other day. 

Maybe its time for you to settle down and sort yourself out a marriage and kids to keep you safe in your old age.

Now, I prefer an arsenal instead. 

The problem is you are not prepared enough to use it, it seems.

We must get our own Aspie army first. Sufferings must be worth it. 

The last thing we want is to have our names put to it. We need a movement whose objective is to change society and come up with a new system of political obligation.

You are expecting a one-in-one hundred sixty-minority (statistically speaking, a substantial percentage of whom can not put two words together towards communication efforts or even give a puckered pink phuck for what you are talking about)(consider the incredibly small number of genius level aspies who could actually dream of such a world - note the membership enrollment of this site, even assume that it is mostly replete with geniuses, compared to the enrollment of the other two or three hundred plus sites for aspies) to devise a way to control the other one hundred sixty (divide by many thousands to reach the realistic disparity in numbers alone and possibly by millions or billions to find the odds of success for your venture)?



...   or we have an army of a few thousands willing to die for some cause that promises them virgins in heaven?  Honestly, fuck that - I want whores in heaven, not virgins. I tire of playing teacher.

[Parts]

I turned 38 the other day. 

Maybe its time for you to settle down and sort yourself out a marriage and kids to keep you safe in your old age.

Now, I prefer an arsenal instead. 

The problem is you are not prepared enough to use it, it seems.

We must get our own Aspie army first. Sufferings must be worth it. 

The last thing we want is to have our names put to it. We need a movement whose objective is to change society and come up with a new system of political obligation.

You are expecting a one-in-one hundred sixty-minority (statistically speaking, a substantial percentage of whom can not put two words together towards communication efforts or even give a puckered pink phuck for what you are talking about)(consider the incredibly small number of genius level aspies who could actually dream of such a world - note the membership enrollment of this site, even assume that it is mostly replete with geniuses, compared to the enrollment of the other two or three hundred plus sites for aspies) to devise a way to control the other one hundred sixty (divide by many thousands to reach the realistic disparity in numbers alone and possibly by millions or billions to find the odds of success for your venture)?



...   or we have an army of a few thousands willing to die for some cause that promises them virgins in heaven?  Honestly, fuck that - I want whores in heaven, not virgins. I tire of playing teacher.

 

[Christopher McCandless]

He needs a more social birthday I feel.

Hardon might be a shitstirring fuck, but at least he knows how to enjoy himself, unlike some. 

When I get my paycheck, I'll be sure to make the most of it.

I do - but then I have the possibility of being a cripple on my back too. Makes me feel a wee hypocrtical preaching to the others, despite the fact i hide my ill health loads.

[TheoK]

It's OK if we're hypocrits, as long as we aren't cowards. 

[DirtDawg]

He needs a more social birthday I feel.

Hardon might be a shitstirring fuck, but at least he knows how to enjoy himself, unlike some. 

When I get my paycheck, I'll be sure to make the most of it.

I do - but then I have the possibility of being a cripple on my back too. Makes me feel a wee hypocrtical preaching to the others, despite the fact i hide my ill health loads.

nah, you haven't mentioned enough about this to grab my attention.

Since you are no longer hiding, what is wrong?

[Christopher McCandless]

He needs a more social birthday I feel.

Hardon might be a shitstirring fuck, but at least he knows how to enjoy himself, unlike some. 

When I get my paycheck, I'll be sure to make the most of it.

I do - but then I have the possibility of being a cripple on my back too. Makes me feel a wee hypocrtical preaching to the others, despite the fact i hide my ill health loads.

nah, you haven't mentioned enough about this to grab my attention.

Since you are no longer hiding, what is wrong?

No idea in terms of a diagnosis, but I have a very twitchy arm and leg so far. Been hiding it by wearing thick clothing - but I think people are going to twig sooner or later.