I am 32 now, but in school always had been the odd girl out. I think that That was mostly the case until the 6th grade. Well, being shy in large crowds like in the lunchroom I would blurt out random stuff due to extreme self consciousnesses. It wasn't until I was 23, I think, that I was diagnosed with Aspergers, so i thought I was the only one like me and a total freak incapable and unworthy of trusting, loyal friendships. On one particular day I blurted out "your ugly". The bad thing was a girl heard me and thought I meant her. Oops. So her fiercely loyal friend said "you're ugly, you're ugly!" Anyway I quietly left the lunchroom and thought if I laid low all would be forgotten. Wrong! Every time they saw me they shouted you're ugly. I was miserable. I wanted to disappear. I told my mom she told my teacher she talked to them and it stopped for a bit. Then started again one day. The friend was making fun of me my strange mannerisms and for some reason I thought it was funny.I started laughing at what she was saying. Eventually she said "you're alright" and "we're friends now". And we were.I didn't mind really I was a lonely kid, so ok! These girls were from the popular crowd and as it turns out were fiercely loyal which helped whenever someone was mean to me for my weirdness. I never really "felt" popular. I always felt like an outsider. After they liked me everyone else wanted to be my friend too. It was a strange contrast to what I was used to.
