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Start here => M.O.-Introductions => Ask Away Threads => Topic started by: Lucifer on March 24, 2008, 03:48:53 PM
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i can't find a tristeza thread, so i'm starting one. :cheer:
so, hon - why are you such a general, all-round good egg? and lovely to look at, too.
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I've got a thread, but it's shit. This one will be better, cause it was started by you, Doctor! :-*
I don't think I'm either of those things you mentioned, but thanks one hell of a lot for saying so. :hug: You're a good friend.
Basically I'm pretty fucked up from PTSD, and so I try to not fuck anyone else up or judge them. :-\ Feels like I've been to hell and back, so I'm disinclined to deliberately send anyone else there. I used to be quite good at that, btw, but found that it didn't make me feel very good.
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have to agree - i start feeling uncomfortable if i overdo being a bitch. so i've just had to fine tune the bitchiness, so i can get the full welly in before i start feeling grotty. :rofl:
what caused the PTSD? PM, if you don't want it all over the board. :hug:
and my official diagnosis is that you're lovely - you cannot argue with The Witch Doctor. :smarty:
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Thanks so much for that very favorable diagnosis. :laugh:
The PTSD was caused both by a dangerous home life when I was growing up, and by some pretty severe bullying by boys at school. I really can't explain it any further or better than that. It's not a secret, just complicated to explain. I've been receiving some serious counseling for it, and I'm getting a lot better. My counselor says that my AS probably saved me. Without my particular "wiring," I would probably not have made it out of my teens.
I don't get bitchy with people. I get very mean very fast in certain real-life situations, but thankfully I'm getting better control over this. I don't generally get upset with people online. I've had my feelings hurt a few times, but those experiences have also made me think, and that's good for me. I'm always trying to understand other people and my reactions to them. Helps me make some sense of things.
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blimey - that PTSD thing sounds appalling. :hug:
i've seen so many children suffering the most atrocious stuff in my time teaching. it hasn't made me terribly keen on a lot of parents/carers... :grrr:
i like "mean". :evillaugh:
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I think you are gorgeous too and if not for your fella I would be flirting with you an awful lot.
(Oh if either one of you is wondering did he mean me or her then the answer is yes) :eyebrows: :asthing:
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Have you eaten all your Easter Eggs yet?
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Les, I would definitely be flirting back. I think you're a cool guy. :hug:
Soph, I haven't had any Easter eggs! I only like my eggs scrambled. :zoinks: And I don't like candy, either...so the chocolate eggs are out.
I've noticed that eggs have been mentioned twice already in this thread. :laugh: Maybe some kind of Freudian reproductive reference.
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I only like my eggs unfertilized. :zoinks:
fixed
I have an easter egg
I've eaten some of it :P
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I only like my eggs unfertilized. :zoinks:
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I have an easter egg
I've eaten some of it :P
:lol:
Do you like those Cadbury creme eggs?
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I do :laugh:
I have 2 and started eating one, then started feeling sick so stopped
Then I did the same with the other
So now I have 2 half-eaten creme eggs lol
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Gross! With those runny yellow insides! :laugh: My husband used to love them.
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I think they're great :laugh:
All the the normal sized ones are too much for me to eat without feeling sick
The mini ones I could eat a lot of though
I like to lick the insides out :laugh:
I feel silly eating them in front of other people though
Like an exhibitionist :laugh:
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NO doubt! :laugh: That's a very Freudian food item.
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I think that's why I never liked bananas
They are too phallic
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I hope there are no conservative christians here... I did not have any traumatic incidents involving bananas while I was growing up.
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I did CPSTD standing on my head, talk to me if you want answers, I cured mine without medication, practically by myself.
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Thanks. Yeah, I'm not on any drugs either. There's no magic pill for CPTSD. Just have to own it and deal.
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You pwn that motherufcker, Tristeza!
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I want magical pills
What do you think of kangaroos? I seem to recall you had an interest in kangaroos?
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Yeah, I used to like kangaroos, too. I liked some really fucked-up animals. :laugh: I can't remember which comedian it was who talked about how Australian animals are proof that God did some heavy drugs. I think it was George Carlin?
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I have no idea :laugh:
Yeah they are funny lol
I love how they bounce around, it always makes me laugh when I see them on tv
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There was some cartoon when I was little that was so funny. Some cat kept thinking a baby kangaroo was a mouse, and he kept trying to catch him. The kangaroo would always kick his ass. :laugh:
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it was a Tom and Jerry episode.
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I like Tom and Jerry
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I did CPSTD standing on my head, talk to me if you want answers, I cured mine without medication, practically by myself.
flo, the only condition of yours you've ever cured was your sanity. ::)
tom and jerry = YAY! :cheer: :pinkbeat:
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Thanks so much for that very favorable diagnosis. :laugh:
The PTSD was caused both by a dangerous home life when I was growing up, and by some pretty severe bullying by boys at school. I really can't explain it any further or better than that. It's not a secret, just complicated to explain. I've been receiving some serious counseling for it, and I'm getting a lot better. My counselor says that my AS probably saved me. Without my particular "wiring," I would probably not have made it out of my teens.
I agree, having AS is the reason I made it this far in my life. :plus:
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There was some cartoon when I was little that was so funny. Some cat kept thinking a baby kangaroo was a mouse, and he kept trying to catch him. The kangaroo would always kick his ass. :laugh:
I loved that one.
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Thanks. Yeah, I'm not on any drugs either. There's no magic pill for CPTSD. Just have to own it and deal.
Actually, I read about a trial using propranolol for PTSD that had a single incident that triggered it, I think.
It made the person hyperfocus less on the traumatic incident that caused the PTSD.
This is not the article that I saw, but it has some more information about it:
http://www.neuropsychiatryreviews.com/march02/ptsd.html
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There was some cartoon when I was little that was so funny. Some cat kept thinking a baby kangaroo was a mouse, and he kept trying to catch him. The kangaroo would always kick his ass. :laugh:
I loved that one.
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Yes, I remember that being a Warner Bros./Looney Tunes cartoon. Classic stuff.............classic good cartoons! :green:
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Thanks. Yeah, I'm not on any drugs either. There's no magic pill for CPTSD. Just have to own it and deal.
Actually, I read about a trial using propranolol for PTSD that had a single incident that triggered it, I think.
It made the person hyperfocus less on the traumatic incident that caused the PTSD.
This is not the article that I saw, but it has some more information about it:
http://www.neuropsychiatryreviews.com/march02/ptsd.html
Yeah, I've heard about that too. Sounds promising, if the trauma was something sudden & discrete like rape or a natural disaster. Interesting how adrenaline apparently sets and intensifies frightening memories - makes sense.
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When someone dies at home, do police always take photos of the body?
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police only get involved at all if there's suspicion of foul play.
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What if it was an accident or suicide?
And a police chaplain person was there?
Do they take pictures then, or are they just there to check what happened?
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taking photos suggests to me they suspect something untoward, cos photos are used for evidence, forensic analysis, etc.
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oh ok thanks
I was watching Real Life Crime Scene Investigation and it was making me paranoid so I had to change the channel :laugh:
I should just switch it off altogether, actually
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taking photos suggests to me they suspect something untoward, cos photos are used for evidence, forensic analysis, etc.
It's just a routine part of the forensic examination. No big, just making sure all the angles are covered and it's very routine.
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What do they do with the pictures afterwards?
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What do they do with the pictures afterwards?
It becomes part of your patient record. No big, just a way to follow any possible problems that may occur. Or for possible evidence in case foul play is proven. It's no big deal.
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What about ones that get on the internet though?
I've seen sites with photos on it of people who's killed themselves, pictures that were taken at the scene after it happened. How do people get hold of them?
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What about ones that get on the internet though?
I've seen sites with photos on it of people who's killed themselves, pictures that were taken at the scene after it happened. How do people get hold of them?
Cell phone camera's make everybody a paparazzi these days. And it's something that creeps me out just thinking about it. The fact that my family could be cell phoned camera'd by a potential creepazoid just going out to dinner/lunch is enough to make me very wary.
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It creeps me out as well
I am paranoid about myself, but not too bothered really. But when it comes to other people like family and people I care about, it really messes with my head. I hate thinking that someone could take pictures like that of them. There were pictures on this site of people who'd hanged themselves and things. I wouldn't want a picture like that of someone I love on the internet.
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My paranoia's disappeared completely when I had the police search my room and belongings.
That, and the last shreds of my dignity ::)
They went through my knicker drawer ffs! :laugh:
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It creeps me out as well
I am paranoid about myself, but not too bothered really. But when it comes to other people like family and people I care about, it really messes with my head. I hate thinking that someone could take pictures like that of them. There were pictures on this site of people who'd hanged themselves and things. I wouldn't want a picture like that of someone I love on the internet.
To protect my family, I wouldn't hesitate to commit an act of violence. When it comes to their safety, ethics, principles, integrity are superflous. :grrr:
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Four?
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Huh? We playing golf now? ???
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Hole in one?
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You wish! :laugh:
I saw a bumper sticker today that said Jerome, Arizona...Population: Strange.
Is that where you live now? :zoinks:
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Nope. I'm right in phoenix,
with big piles of hard poop in
my neighborhood.
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I saw those pics! That's what it looks like! :laugh:
Do you like it there? Is it hot year round? I like hot weather.
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It's hot. Like summer. I fear when it gets
up to 120. :-\
I HATE heat.
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I saw those pics! That's what it looks like! :laugh:
Do you like it there? Is it hot year round? I like hot weather.
Then you would love Phoenix.
I believe that in the summers, it gets up to 120 at times and you can usually swim outdoors on Christmas Day there.
I think that it's the Armpit of Hell, but that's just my opinion.
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It's hot. Like summer. I fear when it gets
up to 120. :-\
I HATE heat.
Come to London. It's bloody freezing here.
Not that I get out much anymore :laugh:
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I saw those pics! That's what it looks like! :laugh:
Do you like it there? Is it hot year round? I like hot weather.
Then you would love Phoenix.
I believe that in the summers, it gets up to 120 at times and you can usually swim outdoors on Christmas Day there.
I think that it's the Armpit of Hell, but that's just my opinion.
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I'd like it, so long as I had a pool and didn't have to ever wear pantyhose (which I won't anyway). It would be weird to live somewhere that hot that's not also near the ocean, though. I might feel claustrophobic.
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I think that it's the Armpit of Hell, but that's just my opinion.
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So....you've been to hell?
I'd like it, so long as I had a pool and didn't have to ever wear pantyhose (which I won't anyway). It would be weird to live somewhere that hot that's not also near the ocean, though. I might feel claustrophobic.
It's better without skin, even.
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I've been to Vegas, and that was pretty hot too. I would have to wear 1000 SPF sunscreen out there. :-\
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The PTSD was caused both by a dangerous home life when I was growing up, and by some pretty severe bullying by boys at school. I really can't explain it any further or better than that. It's not a secret, just complicated to explain. I've been receiving some serious counseling for it, and I'm getting a lot better. My counselor says that my AS probably saved me. Without my particular "wiring," I would probably not have made it out of my teens.
I wonder if my autism helped me deal with bullying as well. Because I became numb to a lot of it. I still feel cold and sick to the stomach when I remember some of it, though. Whenever I hear of someone being bullied now, I feel really angry.
I like how you said to own it and deal (PTSD). I am trying to get that attitude as well.
When will you make you video of Audrey? Does she meow a lot?
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I saw a bumper sticker today that said Jerome, Arizona...Population: Strange.
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Lucifer, you should have seen the driver of the car. She was indeed...strange. :laugh:
Ren, I'm going to upload a vid of Audrey today. She's going completely spastic over a piece of white lint on a dark blue towel. She does this all the time. She's really autistic-acting. I'm afraid she's got AS! :zoinks:
And yes, I know my AS helped me cope with bullying to a certain extent. But in my case, my AS behaviors were what instigated a lot of the bullying. I'm not saying I deserved the abuse I received, but I can now understand why certain kids reacted to me the way they did. :-\
I've never felt sorry for myself, and that's been the biggest advantage I could have in dealing with this. You can find sympathy in the dictionary between shit and syphilis, my dad used to say! :laugh: The only reason I choose to tell people about the PTSD is because in case I act weird or mean around them, I don't want them to think it's because of something they've done or said wrong. I want them to know that it's my problem I'm having to work on, because I don't want to fuck up any more friendships due to it. I got tired of people either thinking that I was a horrible person or that they'd done something to offend me.
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Lucifer, you should have seen the driver of the car. She was indeed...strange. :laugh:
you've never seen me drive: those here who have would probably use other adjectives than "strange", though. :laugh:
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Lucifer, you should have seen the driver of the car. She was indeed...strange. :laugh:
Ren, I'm going to upload a vid of Audrey today. She's going completely spastic over a piece of white lint on a dark blue towel. She does this all the time. She's really autistic-acting. I'm afraid she's got AS! :zoinks:
And yes, I know my AS helped me cope with bullying to a certain extent. But in my case, my AS behaviors were what instigated a lot of the bullying. I'm not saying I deserved the abuse I received, but I can now understand why certain kids reacted to me the way they did. :-\
I've never felt sorry for myself, and that's been the biggest advantage I could have in dealing with this. You can find sympathy in the dictionary between shit and syphilis, my dad used to say! :laugh: The only reason I choose to tell people about the PTSD is because in case I act weird or mean around them, I don't want them to think it's because of something they've done or said wrong. I want them to know that it's my problem I'm having to work on, because I don't want to fuck up any more friendships due to it. I got tired of people either thinking that I was a horrible person or that they'd done something to offend me.
You make a good point of the other side of AS. It makes us targets in so many ways. I went thru most of life feeling I had a bullseye on my ass and a sign that said "KICK ME" on my back. I didn't deserve what happened in most cases, but, somehow I was always able to get up off the ground and keep moving forward.
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What is strongest: your sense of humour, common sense, or sense of smell?
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What is strongest: your sense of humour, common sense, or sense of smell?
Strongest, meaning most predominant, is probably my sense of humor. I'm always giggling about something, but no one else gets why I'm so amused.
My common sense isn't that great, but my sense of smell is excellent. I used to want to be a "nose," one of those people who create perfumes. You have to have formal chemistry training, though, plus the job rules your entire life. You have to be so careful about what you eat, drink, and breathe that life is very restricted. And I wouldn't be good at selling perfumes because of the AS, even though I know tons about them. :-\
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I always laugh to myself too :laugh:
And look like a spaz.
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It's fun! People tend to leave you alone and give you lots of room in public places. :zoinks:
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Especially on buses and the tube :orly:
When I sing while walking down the street, I always have a clear path :zoinks:
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You make a good point of the other side of AS. It makes us targets in so many ways. I went thru most of life feeling I had a bullseye on my ass and a sign that said "KICK ME" on my back. I didn't deserve what happened in most cases, but, somehow I was always able to get up off the ground and keep moving forward.
My response was to work out and cultivate a 'piss off or I'll rip your head off and shit down your neck' appearance for when I didn't want to be bothered. It works very well and neds are quite respectful towards me, though I think it scares off women.
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You make a good point of the other side of AS. It makes us targets in so many ways. I went thru most of life feeling I had a bullseye on my ass and a sign that said "KICK ME" on my back. I didn't deserve what happened in most cases, but, somehow I was always able to get up off the ground and keep moving forward.
My response was to work out and cultivate a 'piss off or I'll rip your head off and shit down your neck' appearance for when I didn't want to be bothered. It works very well and neds are quite respectful towards me, though I think it scares off women.
Yeah, that vibe isn't as scary coming from a female. Probably more comical than anything. But an angry guy can be scary. :-\
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
uhhh...i know someone, but I won't say who. :P
Just kidding, I respect him too much for that. :)
I don't do threesomes anyway, I'm not a teamplayer.
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
uhhh...i know someone, but I won't say who. :P
Just kidding, I respect him too much for that. :)
I don't do threesomes anyway, I'm not a teamplayer.
lol, fun reply :plus:
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
uhhh...i know someone, but I won't say who. :P
Just kidding, I respect him too much for that. :)
I don't do threesomes anyway, I'm not a teamplayer.
lol, fun reply :plus:
haha! thanks. 8)
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
uhhh...i know someone, but I won't say who. :P
Just kidding, I respect him too much for that. :)
I don't do threesomes anyway, I'm not a teamplayer.
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
uhhh...i know someone, but I won't say who. :P
Just kidding, I respect him too much for that. :)
I don't do threesomes anyway, I'm not a teamplayer.
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great stuff. :plus:
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Thanks, ladies. :laugh:
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oi! who are you calling a lady? :belly:
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Tristeza, do you think in pictures?
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My thinking is pretty garbled, so it's hard for me to analyze how I think. I guess my thoughts are like a film or a tape, like I'm watching them or at least listening to them. That must mean I think both in words and pictures. The more emotional my thoughts happen to be, the more it's like watching a silent film...mostly visual with no words. I much prefer that stage, I get a lot more out of it.
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:heart: your new avatar, tristeza. audrey in "moon river"... sigh...
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I love Audrey Hepburn - I named my cat after her. She's not as graceful and dainty as the real Audrey, alas. :laugh:
My husband first told me about Breakfast at Tiffany's. He said her character reminded him of me. Not her looks or fine accent, haha! Just the rambling way in which she talked to people, and her nosy questions! :laugh:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRfl-K3JrAE&NR=1
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ohh! /swallows lump in throat.
she is SO gorgeous. wish i looked like her. and i love that film - one of my favourites. :heart:
mind you, i look bloody great in big hats like that, you know.
thank you for that. sigh... sniff...
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Awww...you're welcome, sweetie. :hug: And I have no doubt you look divine in Audrey-style. ;) It's truly a brunette thing - I can't pull it off.
I found a funny scene you'll remember, with her rambling and failing miserably at domesticity. Still makes me cry a little, of course.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAIQNiki4Fo&NR=1
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Audrey Hepburn is beautiful. I have a picture of her on my wall :P
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Awww...you're welcome, sweetie. :hug: And I have no doubt you look divine in Audrey-style. ;) It's truly a brunette thing - I can't pull it off.
I found a funny scene you'll remember, with her rambling and failing miserably at domesticity. Still makes me cry a little, of course.
the knitting kills me, and the way she sloshes all that vinegar over the salad! /winces.
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You think you're wincing? :laugh: It's like watching myself behave. Especially the part when he asks "how'd you find me?" and she says "well, I tried this and this and this...and then decided I'd try looking in the phone book." :P
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:lol:
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What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
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You think you're wincing? :laugh: It's like watching myself behave. Especially the part when he asks "how'd you find me?" and she says "well, I tried this and this and this...and then decided I'd try looking in the phone book." :P