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Start here => What's your crime? Basic Discussion => Topic started by: Randy on June 12, 2007, 10:22:24 AM
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My behavior towards our little issue at times was atrocious. The last pm I think had extra commentary about you saying you were wrong, which is almost I told you so. I guess I am still mad at you for I think your behavior is hypocritical. I thought about the pm after I left here yesterday and it just bothered me from last night to this morning, but not continuously. I am not trying to be a self righteous asshole and am open to things not working as I planned, but you must understand I don't cherrish the thought of having to take extra pills or any for that matter for the rest of my life. I am very smart and just want to see how far I can take what I believe my is my natural cure. It does seem to be working for whatever exact reason, and this at least affords me a reduction in the amount of meds I would need if that does happen. My behavior was at least in part motivated by truama, which is dying down do to the improvements in mood. I suspect your current decision to "ignore me" maybe be at least partially motivated by you AS, and so I I should at least give you your peace and let you see what I can do. ;D It seems your behavior is sorta Alex like, and you both have AS so its not a surprise to me. This not something to poke fun or embarass you in front of intensity memember, and it pulls me into for my behavior is amiss. It pushes my mood to fae. You just do the best with what you have as I am now.
Have a nice day and I am sorry again. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
I should change the order of my post with paragraphs, as my thoughts are racing because I have not ate all morning.
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My behavior, at times, was atrocious and I am sincerly sorry. I was thinking about how I sounded last night in that pm I sent you which you may or may not have ignored. The statement "that you were wrong" was extra commentary and is almost like an I told you so, which is immature, but it was motivated by truama. However, I am annoyed, as I find your decision to ignore me may or may not be hypoctical. I think your decision is partly an AS thing, and so like Alex Plank. You are both AS so there is no getting around that, but you seem to have less issues. I am was never in anyway trying to be a self righteous mother fucker, and am open to other things
I don't cherrish the taking any pills for the rest of my life, especially unatural ones. You must understand I wish to see how my efforts to improve effect me. Its a scientific endevor and those intrest me. Its a learning experience, and it at least affords me reduced need for psychotropic medication. I owe you at least uninterrupted time to make your decision, as if I continue to press you it may make you come to unjust decision. I have seen enough where bad moods make a person do things that inappropiate as is it clouds ones point of view. Maybe that happened with you to, but as I said my main point here is I am sorry and am not a self righteous mother fucker. For what ever exact reason, it does seem to be working. ;D
Oh much better, guess meditation does help doesn't it? Even during hypoglycemia, I can pay attention to how I feel and make some reparations.
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reperations! ;)
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reperations! ;)
he spelt it right, not you, captain dyslexia. :LMAO:
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reperations! ;)
he spelt it right, not you, captain dyslexia. :LMAO:
i know captain obvious.
flo has been posting semi-well lately and i was giving him a freebie.
just like in calandales thread where flo corrected him.
i couldn't think of anything else that would have been so easy for him.
durr! don't you think i read?
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Its hard to tell with you. :smarty:
And yes, I HAD noticed, which is why I've been taking time to reply to some of his posts instead of cracking jokes. Hell, I've even had to hit the yay button a couple of times. :yikes:
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Hell, I've even had to hit the yay button a couple of times. :yikes:
same here. 8)
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8) me too
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same here.
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You mean you actually understand what Flo said? ???
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You mean you actually understand what Flo said? ???
They've learned how to go with the Flo.
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*groooooaaaaaaannnnn*
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*groooooaaaaaaannnnn*
Yes, I suppose they do think he's learned and groooooaaaaaaannnnn.
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You mean you actually understand what Flo said? ???
i understand that he is slowing down....and trying. i do understand more of what he says lately, yes!
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i skim what he says and then plus him. :P
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Cheater! ;D
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i skim what he says and then plus him. :P
It's easier just to skip the first part.
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And the last, and the part in the middle.
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:LMAO: :plus:
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I feel so on top of my game, I would call myself NT.
Hope you all enjoy your day as much as I do.
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:laugh: this thread is funny.
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And a bit sad, at the same time.
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I feel so on top of my game, I would call myself NT.
Hope you all enjoy your day as much as I do.
Always found the average person to be pretty pathetic,
but that would be a step up, for you.
:laugh: this thread is funny.
So are you.
And a bit sad, at the same time.
So...ah hell, I can't be that mean.
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So...ah hell, I can't be that mean.
Sure you can. You know you want to.
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I shan't go one on one with you.
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I shan't go one on one with you.
:chicken:
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No, just wastes my effort.
I can go faster without helping you.
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No, just wastes my effort.
I can go faster without helping you.
Helping me? Oh, I see, you still think you can reach me before the 10k?
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
It's not a competition. Never was.
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boys will be boys... ::)
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boys will be boys... ::)
But sometimes they'll be girls and tell their horrified dad. :P
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
It's not a competition. Never was.
right!
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
It's not a competition. Never was.
Woulda been. You don't have the heart to
spam. Without all the fresh meat, you wouldn't
have had a chance. It was only 4:1.
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In the long run, it doesn't much matter.
You will be in my dust soon enough.
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i guess it was a competition....for one.
calandale, how many posts do you have on WP?
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8305
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
It's not a competition. Never was.
Woulda been. You don't have the heart to
spam. Without all the fresh meat, you wouldn't
have had a chance. It was only 4:1.
I would have beaten you anyway. I was never all over the n00bs, unlike you.
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In the long run, it doesn't much matter.
You will be in my dust soon enough.
Big deal. People won't remember because the 10k was what mattered. :laugh:
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In the long run, it doesn't much matter.
You will be in my dust soon enough.
Big deal. People won't remember because the 10k was what mattered. :laugh:
good grief - have you grown an extra pair of bollocks, or something?
(oooooooh, shiver...! :eyelash: )
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No. Not a chance. But, I want to watch myself lose.
It's not a competition. Never was.
Woulda been. You don't have the heart to
spam. Without all the fresh meat, you wouldn't
have had a chance. It was only 4:1.
I would have beaten you anyway. I was never all over the n00bs, unlike you.
The big deal was all the action that they were creating
at a time when I couldn't really be on much. But, it
was a hell of a handicap. Anyhow, enjoy being ahead
for the next few days - you'll never be there again.
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I don't want to be there. I never did. I did want to beat you to the 10k, but only because you and others made such a fuss about it.
So go ahead. Post to your heart's content. Enjoy. Be happy. And remember that McJ is only 17k or so ahead of you.
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boys will be boys... ::)
And girls will continue to be cynical bitches.
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8305
do you love us more?
are you the #1 poster?
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boys will be boys... ::)
And girls will continue to be cyclical nical bitches.
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What ever is the matter here, I hope Carla is reading my posts. Its proof I am not the same anymore. You just have to be open to the possiblitites, and its the ones who look at these with caution that are smart. I just think ignoring my posts is cautioning too much. The longer this impass occurs the more that is missed out on, for both of us. I have a nack for humour and I liked making her laugh. That is certainly welcome even if I am in a good mood already.
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Jessus fuckn christ, come on Carla. I hope this does not mean other stuff about your lfe. Its very important you be open with caution to the possiblites, otherwise you miss stuff. I have not ate all morning, but it does not seem to cause hyperactivity anymore from hypoglycemia. It seems as though nothing bothers me as much anymore. I jogged/ walked, what I have been told to be six miles, to get a .97cent box of carrington green tea with ginseng at walmart. I did not eat all day untill something like 7pm, and I was still calmn enough not to spend the money on junkfood. I had no ginseng that day at all untill I got home. I had some yesterday though. That six miles could have been one way, and it was because I had no ride and flat tire. Oh well, no sense in stressing, as I am doing my best. I hope your doing swell, Lol swell, must be geting horny again. I start laughing alot because everything keeps reminding me of sex, and there is some stress wondering if my girlfriend is going to get annoyed with me. I does not seem to matter if I am ginseng or any herb because its constant. Mild at times but relatively constant.
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I am not trying to start shit, just been making some observations. I noticed I can pay attention and controll my actions even in the heavest stress, so that means there is no problem with me.
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sorry callaway if i snapped at you in the sex forum, im shure yer very smart :laugh: :)
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I am sure she excuses idiots! :laugh:
Ah hah you know I am joking.
Sorry I just picking as this issue so much, I just think she is missing out.
I got a free burger a couple of days ago at the firestation. I threw out the cheese and bun and ate the hamburger. While the fireman was cooking the burger he was also cooking hotdogs, and there was police officers cashing in on it to. So I says, to the guy next to me, "Dogs in hot pursuit', and the guy laughs. Police dogs, hot dogs, and hunger get it? My mom bought iced coffee for her boyfriend and one of his ship mates says this one is for Eddy. So I said, "Why are you tell me that? You want me to spit in it or something?'' I put on a midly serious face.
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I am sure she excuses idiots! :laugh:
yer excused, the train leaves in 10 minutes dont be late :laugh:
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The train full of women leaving in 10 minutes, must get on board!
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Flo, if you start taking your meds and editing your posts, I'll feel less inclined to ignore you. Otherwise, you speak gibberish and don't take care of yourself, and it is annoying.
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When are you going to learn? I know what is the matter with me and I am fine now. Lets see now... the dark circles under my eyes are half gone now, and it appears to be due to accidental ingestion of gluten and casein. Sunblock does not effectively adress the cosmetic issue of my noise being red with small pimpling. Its red for various reasons... Lack of stomach acid, and or need for detoxification etc. Extremely annoying withdrawl occurs in those three days, but again subsides after then. Improvements in skin starts at three days, and reduced pimpling plus redness does occur. I notice after three days, orgasm feels better, suggesting that its something to do with exorphins. I know I appear social on here, but there was quite a bit of times when I would not talk, but there were also quite alot of times where I would approach strangers and just chat. After four days I notice some improvement in mood, and after 7 Its wonderful. Ginseng helps at times, but its no subsitute for a grain and dairy restricted diet. I know very well the difference in how one food makes me feel. I have ate tons of junkfood, had various observations, and gluten and casein are the worst offenders of how I feel. I have cravings every ounce in a while, but gluten and dairy are not the first things anymore. Even if I were to eat some now, it would not taste as good to me. That is another sign I am allergic People who don't know me start approaching more toward the end of the seventh day, and I get more looks from women especially with addition of ginseng. I am not smiling or doing anything more.
So I thought it about it for awhile, how the fuck did this happen? My mom tells me she gave me oats at two weeks old because it was the only thing that would stop me from crying for food. I disrupted the nursery and got thrown out for crying spells. Mom starved to death when I was in her belly. I mean not literally, but she ate a whole entire pumkin pie cause of me. She says I ate the placenta to. The pediatrician recomended oats and he is an idiot. I would never give oats, wheat, barley, rye, or actual cows milk to an undevolped intestinal tract. That can cause an allergy to form.
I have recently met up with some old friends, and there other friends excepted me. I was not made fun of for being socially inept at all, infact I made a joke that amused the whole gang. I was polite and tactful when Weeze's cousin was doing something weird. With restiction of grains and dairy, I decided I should give it ago. There was some truama issues cropping up, but not allergies aggravating them. They said I was diesal! It was a crowd hanging outside Eric's house of six people, and I was not bothered. I told them my secrets because the past don't matter as much as what you do now. Its been a while since I enjoyed that, and I got roomates on the way! It will be three people paying the bills. Tommy likes me even though he is hated quite a bit and rather depressed. I am happy to make his day with my postive mood! People are sometimes so mean and not the victims fault sometimes.
So what do I do know with left over cravings? Well, I think about the fact that junkfood actually makes a bad mood worse, so if I thought it was bad now it will be worse if I do impulsive things. I meditate and I am able to strictly abstane from it now. I have lost 18 lbs from doing that, and weigh 147lbs now. Want me to loose weight for you Carla? I am just joking, so don't get mad. You can do anything I can, if you put your mind to it. Logically, I am happier not eating any at all. I turn to other healthy foods that I like instead also. I like pretty much all foods. I could eat a whole entire bad of frozen broccoli real easy. I recently started grabbing fresh dandelion leaves from the outside to improve detoxification, digestion, and the health of my best friend dick! Its alot of fun, and its more arousing then ginseng to me. Three times, ounce every hour, and great dream, all from two cups of leaves. You bet I paid attention, I like that activity! Dandelion leaves are richer in b vitamins than most other vegetables and are quite expensive in the stores, but are free outside! Food outside tends to not have pesticides so is got more nutrition in it. Honey suckle flowers taste great also!
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He's great at bullshitting, I'll give him that.
I don't think he needs meds, I think he's a perfectly able-bodied human being with a penchant of being a total crazy fag on some message board.
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He's great at bullshitting, I'll give him that.
I don't think he needs meds, I think he's a perfectly able-bodied human being with a penchant of being a total crazy fag on some message board.
that ws funny. you fucking homo.
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Alright, Carla, I don't need your imput. Please just do me a favor and stop responding to my posts like you said you were going to do. When you come around to finally agreeing, I will not say I told you so. If you ever need my help, I will listen, but just please leave me alone otherwise. I think you are doing an AS thing, no offense, were you get hyper focus on something. Its like everyone obessively trying to dx me without paying attention to my feelings. My seven days are up, and boy it feels good. I don't need along time to recover anymore because I am healthy. Being as healthy as possible is the best defense against accidental ingestion. The person who changed my avitar seems like a jealous fuckn wanker. Grow up and work as hard as I do, then maybe you will be something special. Its great when you look hot naturally though, I will tell you! I can't gain weight, and man I have alot of calorie dense health food to. Maybe I like to exercise so much and maybe I burn it off too quickly. Antioxidant rich foods and teas help protect me from the free radical stress of that. Red tea, with its 50 times ability to quell free radicals, is a good choice. I was not trying to loose any weight, just put my mind to my health in a very serious way. I am proud of my awesome body!
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Why is it always assumed that when someone takes the mick of somebody, you're a jealous wanker? Can it be possible to be a prick, albeit a content one?
I'd say so.
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they're just jealous of your ability to be a prick.
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they're just jealous of your ability to be a prick.
That they are, Bjork. That they are.
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Peegai, think more carefully :laugh: I have ulterior motives for almost everything I do. I would not expect me to do an AS thing, its just below me, no offense. I guess I should admit it, my ploy was reverse psychology. I am pretty sure Mc Walmart did that, and by accusing him of such I would hope he would have changed it back.
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I have ulterior motives for almost everything I do.
doesn't that rather imply sentience? ???
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I have ulterior motives for almost everything I do.
doesn't that rather imply sentience? ???
No, it implies a tape recorder, in this case. :P
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you being gnomic again? ???
hmmm, if you're thinking too much, i may have to do something about that. :P
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I would not expect me to do an AS thing, its just below me, no offense.
Sick of your comments along these lines.
:upyours:
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me too. and you can fuck off sending offensive PMs to me, too, flo.
stupid little turd. ::)
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me too. and you can fuck off sending offensive PMs to me, too, flo.
stupid little turd. ::)
has he been sending you offensive PM's? lol.
let's have a read?
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on its way in a min.
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on its way in a min.
what a revolting little turd.
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me too. and you can fuck off sending offensive PMs to me, too, flo.
stupid little turd. ::)
Let me see too, Vivi.
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Peegai, think more carefully :laugh: I have ulterior motives for almost everything I do. I would not expect me to do an AS thing, its just below me, no offense. I guess I should admit it, my ploy was reverse psychology. I am pretty sure Mc Walmart did that, and by accusing him of such I would hope he would have changed it back.
Before you start to claim that you're better than myself and everyone else here, live up to your words by not making a complete mockery of yourself every time you post a non-sensical message. And why do you socialise with a community that is beneath your standards, anyway?
Think with your brain for once, not with the constant use of your ass, Randy. Less shit that way.
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i love you Flo. :angel:
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Look it, Renaeden, the reason for that comment is I am sick of being stigmatized with aspergers bullshit. Lots of people dxed me every five minutes and my mom is still doing it. I asked her nicely, said please stop, and you know what I got? "I will leave you out on the street". I was twelve miles or so from my home visting my poor dying grandmother, and I was did not feel like jogging home. I train enough already, and I don't need anymore! I lost lets see now, about 20 lbs. I eat like a pig to, and most of my many training sessions are low intensity to strengthen digestion and detoxification. On top of that, I am studying at midnight psychology or books on medicine, and making regular inspections of my body to make sure I am happy with my apperance. Miserable rotten mom, and yet I know what her problem is. She suffers from bipolar disorder and her mom is dying, but that does not give her the right to be mean like that. I don't care if she is my fuckn mom, I don't want to argue period, its unproductive. She did not fuckn like that, but too fuckn bad! I am not going to play no fuckn childish games with her.
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she obviously loves you, flo - i'd leave you in the middle of the fucking street. at rush hour.
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:'( i wouldn't.
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Look it, Renaeden, the reason for that comment is I am sick of being stigmatized with aspergers bullshit.
Bullshit, eh?
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I have ulterior motives for almost everything I do.
doesn't that rather imply sentience? ???
He IS seeming better again.
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better than...?
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better than...?
Better than when he types from his phone.
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but wouldn't that restrict the sheer volume of inanity? in which case, the comparitive adjective should be reversed, surely?
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I feel like he makes sense, when
he's not typing in all caps. Then again,
apparently I DON'T, so maybe he and
I speak the same language. :o