Love is something you fear.
I embrace what I fear. I just don't talk about it much.
Entropy is a worse killer.
1. Hell, I can't know you well enough (can I even know myself?),
but from what I've seen, I think you're fooling yourself. You take
on what gives you some charge, but are ignoring just WHY you
have avoided love. Probably for the same reasons I avoid most
drugs.
2. Ah yes, this one most of us can assume we get to experience eventually
though. No reason to hurry it.