Like I really can't take much more of this shit
YOU stop it right there!!
Go outside, RIGHT NOW and worship the sun! ... or find a cloud that looks like an animal ... You can not just give up this easily!
Learn something from the examples of your friend.
Even though you may not agree moment by moment, as the years add up, you can take more and more and more. Do not keep up this line of thought! Make a change, if you need to!