How are you feeling right now?

['Butterflies']

I really hope he's OK. The thought of losing one of the few people I'm close to scares me hugely.

[DirtDawg]

Thanks, but I wish I could talk in depth about this, actually.

No one I know is here.

There never is, anymore.

[Phlexor]

I think the fact that you are concerned that you are thinking about how it impacts you and that you want to not make it about you is a sign that you do care. I don't think anyone can make it 100% not about themselves.

["couldbecousin"]

I think the fact that you are concerned that you are thinking about how it impacts you and that you want to not make it about you is a sign that you do care. I don't think anyone can make it 100% not about themselves.

^ THIS

I hope he'll be OK.

[Callaway]

Afraid and scared.

I really only have one friend; my brother - my younger brother. No one else is as close to me or can ever be as close. He is going to have a very serious medical procedure (open heart surgery) done tomorrow before sun up. I am afraid for him and I am afraid that my own worthless ass will be left alone if something goes wrong.
 
 
This is a bunch of mixed up shit to think about.


True enough ...

... I can't find a way to make this NOT about me.  I hate being me!!


NONE OF THIS IS ABOUT ME!!

.. why can't I know that!

I hope he's going to be OK.  I know that it was terrifying for me when my daughter had open heart surgery.  I know that it's not about you and it wasn't about me either, but it was the hardest thing I have ever done to hand her to the anesthesiologist to take her into surgery even knowing that she would have died without the surgery.

Is your brother's surgery a valve replacement, a coronary artery bypass, or what is it?  My daughter had a big hole in her heart (a VSD) as well as a PFO and a PDA.

[Icequeen]

Afraid and scared.

I really only have one friend; my brother - my younger brother. No one else is as close to me or can ever be as close. He is going to have a very serious medical procedure (open heart surgery) done tomorrow before sun up. I am afraid for him and I am afraid that my own worthless ass will be left alone if something goes wrong.
 
 
This is a bunch of mixed up shit to think about.


True enough ...

... I can't find a way to make this NOT about me.  I hate being me!!


NONE OF THIS IS ABOUT ME!!

.. why can't I know that!

I know.

My mom hasn't been doing very well for the last couple of years now. She's the only person I've ever really been able to talk to. The "friends" I have are basically acquaintances. My dad passed away years ago. There isn't anyone else. I'm pretty much a "closed book", always have been.

Not about me either, but I'm scared sometimes just the same.

Hoping all goes well for you DD.

[odeon]

Afraid and scared.

I really only have one friend; my brother - my younger brother. No one else is as close to me or can ever be as close. He is going to have a very serious medical procedure (open heart surgery) done tomorrow before sun up. I am afraid for him and I am afraid that my own worthless ass will be left alone if something goes wrong.
 
 
This is a bunch of mixed up shit to think about.


True enough ...

... I can't find a way to make this NOT about me.  I hate being me!!


NONE OF THIS IS ABOUT ME!!

.. why can't I know that!

It's about you both. You can't not be you, and you care about your brother. I hope it goes well for him.

It's good to see you back but I wish the circumstances were better.

[odeon]

Thanks, but I wish I could talk in depth about this, actually.

No one I know is here.

There never is, anymore.

PM me if you need to unload or talk.

["couldbecousin"]

I feel alert and optimistic!

[odeon]

Migrainy. Again. Yay. Not.

["couldbecousin"]

Migrainy. Again. Yay. Not.

Are there any other doctors you could see about this, maybe specialists in pain management?

[Peter]

Dealing with an unwelcome bout of daytime tiredness.

[Adam]

my head is asolutely killing me. also feel like i'm aout to throw up. maybe i should go ack to ed 

[Callaway]

Migrainy. Again. Yay. Not.

I was just reading a study about using three full size aspirins at once (900 mg - 1000 mg total dose) for a migraine and it worked pretty well for about 75% of the people who tried it.  It was comparable to the prescription medication sumatriptan 50 mg but sumatriptan 100 mg worked better.

[odeon]

Migrainy. Again. Yay. Not.

Are there any other doctors you could see about this, maybe specialists in pain management?

I suppose I could... I need a specialist, though, not the garden variety doc available. A lot of the docs I've met don't know a whole lot about migraines.