Ugh. It's exhausting. Hugs to you.
I shut down today to prevent a meltdown. I feel numb. It all goes in waves.
I hate the numbness more than the meltdowns.
Had two minor meltdowns the before, now this one, but it feels there is more to come. It does break the numbness though.
Shutdowns are a good coping device, if not used for too long.
Hugs to you too.
I know. I have a tendency to shut down if I've got more going on inside of me than I can process at one time. I shut down to try and stop feeling everything all at once. Then I think about things one bit at a time. It makes me feel like I have some sort of control I guess. I don't do well with big emotions. I have to take some time to think about things to figure out how I feel and where it fits into my headspace. Not sure if that makes sense?
I'm fine with big positive emotions (happy, falling in love, giddy, excited etc). It's the big negative emotions (anger, fear, distrust) that make me feel uncomfortable in my own skin.
