tristeza replies!

[Lucifer]

i can't find a tristeza thread, so i'm starting one. 

so, hon - why are you such a general, all-round good egg?  and lovely to look at, too.

[Tristeza]

I've got a thread, but it's shit.  This one will be better, cause it was started by you, Doctor! 

I don't think I'm either of those things you mentioned, but thanks one hell of a lot for saying so.     You're a good friend.

Basically I'm pretty fucked up from PTSD, and so I try to not fuck anyone else up or judge them.    Feels like I've been to hell and back, so I'm disinclined to deliberately send anyone else there.  I used to be quite good at that, btw, but found that it didn't make me feel very good.

[Lucifer]

have to agree - i start feeling uncomfortable if i overdo being a bitch.  so i've just had to fine tune the bitchiness, so i can get the full welly in before i start feeling grotty. 

what caused the PTSD?  PM, if you don't want it all over the board. 

and my official diagnosis is that you're lovely - you cannot argue with The Witch Doctor. 

[Tristeza]

Thanks so much for that very favorable diagnosis. 

The PTSD was caused both by a dangerous home life when I was growing up, and by some pretty severe bullying by boys at school.  I really can't explain it any further or better than that.  It's not a secret, just complicated to explain.  I've been receiving some serious counseling for it, and I'm getting a lot better.  My counselor says that my AS probably saved me.  Without my particular "wiring," I would probably not have made it out of my teens.

I don't get bitchy with people.  I get very mean very fast in certain real-life situations, but thankfully I'm getting better control over this.  I don't generally get upset with people online.  I've had my feelings hurt a few times, but those experiences have also made me think, and that's good for me.  I'm always trying to understand other people and my reactions to them.  Helps me make some sense of things.

[Lucifer]

blimey - that PTSD thing sounds appalling. 

i've seen so many children suffering the most atrocious stuff in my time teaching.  it hasn't made me terribly keen on a lot of parents/carers...   

i like "mean".   

[Al Swearegen]

I think you are gorgeous too and if not for your fella I would be flirting with you an awful lot.

(Oh if either one of you is wondering did he mean me or her then the answer is yes) 

[Sophgay]

Have you eaten all your Easter Eggs yet?

[Tristeza]

Les, I would definitely be flirting back.  I think you're a cool guy.   

Soph, I haven't had any Easter eggs!  I only like my eggs scrambled.    And I don't like candy, either...so the chocolate eggs are out.
 
I've noticed that eggs have been mentioned twice already in this thread.    Maybe some kind of Freudian reproductive reference.

[Sophgay]

I only like my eggs unfertilized.   

fixed

I have an easter egg
I've eaten some of it

[Tristeza]

I only like my eggs unfertilized.   

fixed

I have an easter egg
I've eaten some of it

:lol: 
Do you like those Cadbury creme eggs? 

[Sophgay]

I do

I have 2 and started eating one, then started feeling sick so stopped
Then I did the same with the other
So now I have 2 half-eaten creme eggs lol

[Tristeza]

Gross!  With those runny yellow insides!     My husband used to love them.

[Sophgay]

I think they're great
All the the normal sized ones are too much for me to eat without feeling sick
The mini ones I could eat a lot of though
I like to lick the insides out
I feel silly eating them in front of other people though
Like an exhibitionist

[Tristeza]

NO doubt!    That's a very Freudian food item.

[Sophgay]

I think that's why I never liked bananas
They are too phallic