Yeah, I felt like SG's mom did - felt like I'd done something to provoke it by my clothes or by something I said or did. I shouldn't have agreed to go to his place, shouldn't have drank so much, shouldn't have flirted with him, etc. That will always stay with me, even if I know that he was the one who stepped over the line. It was always so difficult for me to know how to act on dates anyway, because most guys seemed to interpret my enthusiastic interest in them as nothing but a sexual come-on. That always confused me and made me feel ashamed, because I've always been very outgoing and talkative. And of course I did find those guys attractive, but I wasn't trying to jump them, nor did I want them to jump me. So when that happened I blamed myself for "being myself," that I was a bad person for having the kind of personality I have.