age is because a person realizes that they are not and will never be a one person army affecing change.
i guess you just lose the stomach for it.
when you are younger you have life by the tail, you have all the answers. as you age you lose the piss and vinegar. you become numb in a way, and you pursue greedy desires and decide ah well, if you cant beat em you may as well join em.
believe me, i hate this internal struggle and i have been doing everything to fight it off.
for instance.
my wife and i took the kids to soak city on friday (part of knotts berryfarm theme park). afterwards we went to Knott's famous fried chicken dinner house. its packed, but that doesn't stop me from having a Jell-o fight with my girls. it ended up everywhere; the walls, the table, my face and all ofer the front of my shirt.
yes i am a kid at heart and have been acting out in more and more overt ways to remind myself that this is where i want to remain. but, i am not stupid, i can feel my internal struggle.
BTW- my wife was mortified. she told all her friends in great detail, laughing and smiling the entire time. she was proud.