I'm sorry about how you're feeling, Milla.
My husband has social anxiety out the yang, avoidant personality disorder, and horrible self-esteem. He's been this way all his life, and it's really starting to screw with him now. He's 48, and completely exhausted from living the life of a workaholic, always trying to be perfect. He's on Lexapro, which helps a little, but he's still a mess. He's going back to the shrink tomorrow. I want so badly for him to get his head together, because I'm exhausted myself from trying to help him.
You guys need to realize that
everyone is fucked up in some way. Please get control over your anxiety, OCD, avoidant stuff now, while you're young. Don't waste your lives worrying about what other people think of you.
rant over. thanks.