ask me anything - mcj answers them

[El]

just seem to be moody lately.

feel free to jab back.

You mean I'm moody this week?  OK, that makes sense.  And in all honesty I probably am.

[purposefulinsanity]

I've been thinking lately how much this quote seems to fit with you:

I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments.

Would you agree with that?

[McGiver]

yes its me.

sabatoge.

you realize that i have always landed on my feet, always.
but i do tend to push to hard, take it to far, drop the ball, whatever.  and i know exactly why i do it, why i back myself into a corner.  i absolutely love to live by my instincts.  I am always pondering large questions, my mind is always racing with thoughts.  i need an outlet for it, or i might explode.
also i love competition, i love a challenge, i love the hotseat, i love intensity.

i act like i don't care, but i care too damn much.  i remember when i was young, that i had the largest heart for all living things.  i used to have gut wrenching remorse for stepping on an ant.
but then when my favorite dog Butch, a st bernard was real sick, dying and in obvious pain.  i remember praying to god to just take him.  i really think that is the turning point for me.
i still care, i still have passion, but i deal with things more logically now, and i mask my fears with wit and a barrage of jokes.


did you have a different interpretation of that quote?

Because my guess is that (if you had a sense of humor) you would find it relates to you...

we both got blunt! and that last sentence was when i blew it.

[purposefulinsanity]

I agree in some ways it does relate to me too- but in real life situations what forces me to blow it more than anything is the fact that I just don't understand people and I am constantly confused when they don't react in a way that I would expect going by their past behaviour. It doesn't help that I have a mischievous streak or that I can be incredibly stubborn.

But anyway, there's got to be worse things in life than finding a Jim Morrison quote relates to ya, right?

[McGiver]

i have read so much in my life.  all subjects but alot of biographies.  i have always felt connected in these books by the incredibly deep, dead guys.  i was convinced for years that i'd be through by the age of 30.  i don't really belong here anyways.
i don't really get people either, and their reactions are always baffling to me.  but somewhere along the way i decided that it was me, that i am confusing, i am baffling.  so i adopted the personality of overkill.  i really want to be known, i really want to be understood.  its sad really, when my kids give me that same confused stare, that i have gotten a million times before.

[purposefulinsanity]

i have read so much in my life.  all subjects but alot of biographies.  i have always felt connected in these books by the incredibly deep, dead guys.  i was convinced for years that i'd be through by the age of 30.  i don't really belong here anyways.
i don't really get people either, and their reactions are always baffling to me.  but somewhere along the way i decided that it was me, that i am confusing, i am baffling.  so i adopted the personality of overkill.  i really want to be known, i really want to be understood.  its sad really, when my kids give me that same confused stare, that i have gotten a million times before.

Well we've both made it past the 'significant' 27 years.  I find I don't even understand myself and find myself trying on roles to see if they fit- just so that I can try find somewhere I belong in this life.  Now I'm trying to learn to accept that perhaps I just don't fit anywhere- but that feels fucking lonely.

[McGiver]

can't say that i am lonely.  matter of fact i would love to feel lonlier.
and as far as fitting in.  i know myself and realize that as long as i act the clown or am ready willing and able to go one step too far, then i am a novelty.  thats the role i have assumed.
the problem for me is that i just don't really like people, in general.  but i have  a huge heart for the underdog.  and by me being a novelty, i get way more attention than i'd like (or do i).
also, i really have an addicting personality, i am affectious, and i hate it. 
i notice my wife tossing me into some mix, cause i am entertaining as hell when i am in fights with big corps.  i go further than their game plan is prepared for.

People love me, but can handle me in small doses, quite often.  me i can handle people in even smaller doses and infrequently.

[Pyraxis]

me i can handle people in even smaller doses and infrequently.

Coulda fooled me.

[McGiver]

Pyraxis, is there something you wanted me to answer?

[Pyraxis]

Sorry, not that time, that was pure hijack. I probably should have thrown a question in there, so:

Why do movies bore you?

[McGiver]

Older moviesa don't bore me.new movies do.

Everything i see seems to be recycled crap, with a new title and different stars.

and aren't they charging 12 bucks a head for this crap, also.

point in fact.  As good as star wars was, the last three versions paled in comparison to the originals.

its like they have this movie making formula and stick to it.  they don't work hard to put out new movies, and to me it shows.

[El]

Would you rather go without socks for a day or go without emoticons for a year?

[Nomaken]

What is it about the particular way you live your life that makes you most proud?

[Silk]

What's so interesting about Jman's profile?

[McGiver]

Would you rather go without socks for a day or go without emoticons for a year?

i like socks but i'd have to give em up.  that fine sand and crumbs on the bottom of my feet would bother me some, but i'd carry a whisk broom to brush it off.

emoticons, i need emos, especially from here:  http://www.smileyparadies.de/smilies/sexy-smilies.php