I'm really sorry, Spoh.
Lemonsquared is right, for OCD, CBT can be a pretty huge help. It will likely be uncomfortable at first (I don't know what you have OCD about, but for example, if you have rituals, you'll at some point be asked to stop or at least delay them), but it sounds like you're pretty unhappy as far as the OCD goes anyway, so it might be worth going through the CBT even if it sucks.
About the sleep- Reneaden is right about that too. I used to have awful, awful, awful insomnia, growing up. The Zyprexa kinda took care of that, but when I went off of it, I was sorta on my own, but there's some stuff that helped me with that; at this point I can usually count on being able to sleep prolly within two hours at the very longest, and usually within an hour (and, for me, that's pretty good). I'm not saying any'll work for you, but it's worth mentioning them in case there's any you haven't tried, or anyone else here with insomnia. One is simply that I have to do a lot during the day, so sometimes at this point I go to bed and I actually conk out within half an hour like a "normal person," lol. But other thah that, like stuff you can control:
-Do NOT watch the clock. I used to do that, and it screws you up HORRIBLY. I turn my alarm clock away from me and try not to look at the time even if I get up to use the bathroom or something. Even aside from it helping me sleep, if I don't know how much sleep I got, I try to just
pretend it was a full seven or eight hours.
-Get rid of distracting noise. I do that by having a fan running- I don't point it at me, but the white noise drowns everything else out. My boyfriend sleeps with his ipod to mask all other nosie, though I think it sometimes gives him nightmares, lol.
-Don't have caffeine past midafternoon if you can help it.
-Exercise during the day if you can. It actually helps with depression, too. I started off taking a 2-3 mile walk every day, which I thought was going to be a pain in the ass at first, but I actually really liked doing it (especially walking around listening to music). I'd just walk down to a grocery store or pharmacy, grab a soda, then walk back. Had to stop because it got way too cold, lol. Now I do DDR every morning, which I love because it involves concentration, so it's not only fun but I can't really think about stuff that's bugging me- it's sort of like meditation. I also noticed that since I started doing it, I'm a lot warmer during the day (may or may not be coincidence)
-Try to see a lot of light- sunlight is best- during the day. Tanning is of course dangerous, but if you don't see light, esepcially sunlight, for too long, it can make you all seasonal affect-y and mess up your sleep cycle. Keep shades/blinds up as much as you can during the day while it's light out. When it's dark early (if that happens where you live), if you can, turn on a lot of lights in a room and see if that makes you perk up a bit.
-Also get out of the house if you can- even just going to the store or somethign like that. If I stay inside for more than a day at a time I start to get cabin fever. That might be just me, of course, but I do know that when I feel lousy I tend to instictively want to stay inside and isolate, but it makes me worse if I do. It used to also allow me to sleep for 13 hours a day sometimes- if I get more than 12, I'm fucked for the rest of the day, so I don't let myself any more.
-This might sound a little perverse, but- if you can get yourself off before going to sleep, it can be like a sleeping pill- plus, you might get distracted from the stuff that you'd normally be awake thinking about, or at least a little less emotionally attached to it.
